~my life. stay out of it. my life~

2007-01-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

hey hey. here is my new blog!

i have MOOOOOOOVED

2007-01-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

wooohoooo. whats more stupid than going and drinking and partying the day before you have a match. that is SOOOOOO stupid. wtf was i thinking.

ah who cares.

no one right?

oh comeon.

no one cares.

cept my mom.

and my fam.

do you care?

nahhh i bet you came cause you were bored.

cause im writing cause im bored.

and abit stoned.

yeah whatever.

go and die.

im going to sleep.

later.

...my scripts end...
~~this is lame~~

2007-01-04T17:47:00.000+08:00

woohooo. blogger as usual is being a bitch. either that or taiwan sucks BIG time. im guessing its taiwan. sighs. the only thing they are good for is their drama serials haha.

ah wells. orientation is being a HUGE bore. sighs.

great joy.

im so happy.

haha ah well what the heck. the next 2 years im just going to focus on studies and tennis. since theres nothing else for me to focus on. hope next week is more fun. sighs.

soooo depressed.

haha some of you should know what i mean. especially IP people.

anyways it feels weird being in ip3. like finally you are old. damnit. and next year is A lvls. this year has promos and pw. omg. and chinese AOs. its funny. feels like PSLE. 6 years then one major exam. another 6 years another major exam. thats that. no more. lol. sighs. OH WELLS.

i guess its time to buck up. and get serious. hokay. time to go and bash some exam papers up this year. and to complete my new years resolutions.

...my scripts end...
~~hoohaa~~

2007-01-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

ignore the previous post. blogger is seriously being a bitch. either that or taiwan sucks.

well i was just trying to say that tomorrow everyone is going to know who are muggers and who isnt. those who do their hw and those who cant give a shit about it.

cant make up my mind whether i want to go to school or not. after working for 1mth and a half. i realise how much better schooling is. but then... dont want the holidays to end do i.

haha. well heres one of my new years resolutions.

do 20 stupid things in public. (note: it dont count as stupid if no one laughs)

yup. help me brain storm people. ive only thought of 4.

...my scripts end...
~~crazy punkass~~

2007-01-01T02:04:00.000+08:00

its the year 2007.

yay.

*waves hands in the air*

joy.

another year of slogging it out.

woe.

just hope to have fun.

oh yeah btw, the previous posts, those arent my new year resolutions. they are mine to know. and mine only. and i still smell of bbq. damn. the party wasnt THAT great, neither was it a blowout. so i guess i'd rate it 7 upon 10? ah well. i need to get some booze. lol read the article on the newspaper about teenage boozing. makes me wonder, at what age did i first get my taste of alcohol? haha. you DO NOT WANT TO KNOW. haha. oh wells.

so its 2007.

and im not the least bit worried about school. maybe that it might suck balls. maybe it wont. depends on the cohort thats coming in. oh man. if its a sucky cohort. im so going to bang my head against the wall.

lets look back on 2006.

whats there to look back on? hmm well. stuff thats happy and sad. made friends. made enemies. changed my perception of tennis. became vice cap. scored decently well. failed stuff. aced stuff. had fun with friends. did crazy stuff with friends. ohman my life sucks. lets all be emo and burn pictures. lol. mmmmmaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, this sucks balls. like really. sucks balls like ENTIRELY. gah. i need to go to school. and like. make new friends. do some memorable stuff. 2006 sucked. GAHHHH. whatever. im pessimistic. cannot. MUST BE OPTIMISTIC. 2007 WILL BE SO WONDERFULLY GREAT! WITH LIGHT SHINING EVERYWHERE! DONT WORRY! BE HAPPY!

yeah like real...

blah. why are you reading this. im just bored. and sleepy. and im just letting my fingers move at will. i dont even know what im typing.

whatever, happy reading?

still reading?

what the hell...

whats so interesting about my blog.

i bet you were bored.

see it says so on the left.

hah.

im psychic.

now shoo.

stop being bored.

so i dont have to do this shit.

hah.

i bet you are not reading anymore.

yeah.

happy new year.

good luck for your future endeavours.

im single and available.

yeahhhhhh..........

...my scripts end...
~~happy new year folks~~

2006-12-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

new years day is coming.

and going.

and i was wondering hey, what the hell is going to be my new years resolution? i have no fucking idea. so what the heck. man i realise something. the only subject that makes me feel miserable is chem. always chem. so screw it. i'll just get a D for chem and get an A for everything else in A lvls. screw it all.

new years resolutions. got any everyone? kinda considering 2 now. or maybe 3. live by my rules. stick to them. dont give up. run em through. fight the pain. the battle's always going to be there. a blocked path in your life. either you run it through, or you stick around and blast a keg or two.

...my scripts end...
~~woohoo~~

2006-12-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

went to watch curse of the golden flower today with noodle after he stayed over. ohman we were so shagged, talked throughout the night till around 3am. shiiiiiit. woke up at 9. urgh. i want to like sleep. and now ive got a dinner tonight. sighs.

anyways the movie was great. although jay chou was abit out of place there. gong li acted really really well and chow yun fatt wasnt a dissappointment. but i really think jay chou shouldnt act. well not for these kind of movies. doesnt suit his kind of look. and reputation.

after that went lanning with hsuante and the 201 guys. ohman it was so gh3y. only 4 guys. because ah pie had indigestion and collapsed while playing soccer or something. no idea. hope hes alright. either way, got quit annoyed at people who keep acting as though they are so damn good and keep complaining when people kill them. say what nonsense lucky and all that shit. i mean. DUDE. YOU DIED. face that fact. you WERENT good enough. on top of that want to try to get triple sci combi. wonder if you guys know who im talking about. but nevermind. wonder how he got to be an OGL. urgh. screw orientation man.

ah wells. i shall... stone. till dinner time.

...my scripts end...
~~oh the internet is workin~~

2006-12-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

geez. who falls sick on christmas day?

lets see...

yours truly i guess.

blah frigging stomach aches and shit. literally. got fever and all that crap just because i kept my crap in. lol. first time i heard that shit. bleaghs. now ive got a tender stomach and a come and go fever problem. sheesh.

all i want for christmas... is to get better and feel the joys of being well again. its funny how you realise things when you are sick. things that you dont see when you are normal and fit as a fiddle... oh wells.

...my scripts end...
~~time to go take a crap~~

2006-12-25T11:58:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.

AND HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

...my scripts end...
~~jingle bells~~

2006-12-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

what makes a good read?

is it the language, the vocabulary? or is it just the story.

usually people read story books for the story, unconciously taking in information of vocabulary and linguistic skills. but more than anything, if the story is just plain blabbering of how beautiful the tree is, just descriptions, people dont usually read it. a story should focus more on the plot, the climax, the end. an essay should focus on the language and content. two different things. now i know what is wrong with my stories. 15 pages of nothing but descriptions. nothing more than mere pictures. i describe too much until i forget the main purpose of a story, a novel. sighs.

two different types of pieces, two different needs.

...my scripts end...
~~story~~

2006-12-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

okay. i think im getting used to the slowness of my own life being slack and all. burning my holidays away watching season one of prison break. got the whole dvd set. (= haha waiting for season 2 to come out.

somehow i cant help it but not be able to stand the way employers treat their maids these days. education supposed to help no? but then why dont we seem to treat them any better? sighs... i feel disgraced that we even are singaporeans.

its kind of sad really. oh wells.

crap.

stomach ache. sighs. must be the dimsum i ate. :/ later gators. im going to give birth to some brown babies. yes. im pregnant. my stomach seems bigger. who is the father? lei garden. haha. dimsum is well... the sexual... stuff. (= later.

...my scripts end...
~~crapping time~~

2006-12-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

IM UNEMPLOYED!

like...

finally...

whew. after all that work, blowing my holidays away, i dont feel like a student anymore. haha. honestly. it feels weird to have HOMEWORK staring in my face. ah well. screw it im not doing it. haha. its honestly freaky seeing everyone mugging to get a headstart for next year. non muggers are becoming muggers. sighs... and everyone has a holiday overseas! and im stuck in singapore working... sighs.

oh wells. ive got my pay. that can keep me company right? for a while or so...

...my scripts end...
~~muggers are not welcomed~~

2006-12-11T16:57:00.000+08:00

well well.

i have returned after a glorious battle on the old battle grounds of farrer park tennis courts. 6-2 6-0. little blood shed. it was a quick battle. fast strikes. many mishits. my skills are rusty, but not too rusty i guess. i still can teach newbies a thing or two. 8 aces. all unreturnable first serves. not bad i guess.

anyways im off to go play nwn2. woohoo!

waiting for hsuante to comeback, and we'll own the computer. heh.

the countdown has begun. 8 days till i stop work. wooooohoooooo!

...my scripts end...
~~counting down~~

2006-12-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

gahhh... after just slacking at home for a complete day, im starting to wish that i dont have to go to work ANYMORE. blah blah blah.

all the hard work just for cash... man this sucks.

and on top of that, ive got a 360 and a new comp. WHAT MORE REASON to just stay at home and slack and stone.

URGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i got to work tmr. NEVERMIND. TAHAN. 2 MORE WEEKS.

then again, 4 more weeks to school opening. sucks.

...my scripts end...
~~balls~~

2006-12-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

heh. well well well.

time passes by really fast. hols are almost over! and i have yet to slack... 2 more weeks of work, and imma outta here. and stay at home and stone and sleep. thank god.

need my pay! rahh.

anyways mom went down to sitex to purchase the compaq comp today. honestly she always asks me to ASK before you buy anything, and she didnt do it herself, and she still thinks she is right, sheesh! ah well.

NEW COMP for me.

and a 360. heh.

wheee

...my scripts end...
~~360 fury~~

2006-11-29T21:26:00.000+08:00

blah. after not blogging for SOOOOOO long. like eons ago. i have returned, using my sister's laptop because my curiosity killed my old com's motherboard. so basically, because it is TOO old to be repaired. imma gonna get a new computer. woohoo.

so basically, these are the specs:

intel core duo processor
40% energy saving
80gb 7200RPM serial ATA hard disk
19' lcd samsung screen
1gig ram
7900GT vid card
intel LGA 775 chipset main board
dvd writer IDE Drive
integrated audio sound
integrated 10/100 mbps ethernet lan card
ATX tower casing c/w power supply unit
fron usb 2.0 hub 2 ports and back 4 pcs
and of course mouse and keyboard (thinking of a razor diamond back)

heh. hows that sound? all that for a bundle of 2k. heh. and also imma go file for my pay claim tmr. once i get it. xbox 360 (=

but then i'll feel broke, maybe i shant get the 360 after all...

...my scripts end...
~~ work sucks~~

2006-11-18T11:10:00.000+08:00

RETURN FROM YLTC!

man was that fun or fun. or not fun. and tiring. and amazing? haha. anyways heres a lowdown on the camp! ive been awake for 8hours. that is i woke up at 3am. now its 11am and im at home.

DAY 1:
first day was fairly interesting and fun. we went through an obstacle course at jalan bahtera camp site also known as the MOE camp site. so basically we took a bus there... gah that was alright i guess. was kinda annoyed that i chose to come for the camp. anyways we settled down and went for the high ropes obstacle course. that was certainly fun i think... haha. was the only guy who managed the challenge pole+pull ups. heh which was kind of interesting... i felt that it was easy to catch the trapeze. but then other people didnt... not sure anyways i did. heh. then after that was lunch and then we proceeded on to the flying fox/zip line and abseiling. that was okay i guess. although i didnt do zipline cause i thought it was stupid. so abseil. blah blah. so boring. had certain stuff here and there, bonded with the team alot. came up with the name TNT for our group 5 team name. heh. which was really cute i thought. though our cheer was kinda sad...

DAY 2:
it kicked off with a bad start with us getting grilled by the teachers. ah well. this probably shows that even leaders have to be led one time or another. we spend too much time at the top and sometimes forget what others and our followers feel. so basically this served as a wake up reminder that we,as leaders, have to constantly lead by example. if this is impossible, then it would be really hard to gain the respect of your followers. we then set out for changi sea sports club after area cleaning and breakfast. MAN THE BUS RIDE WAS LONG. and i fricking passed the exit to my estate. i was like $&(@#@$&( HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah well. every one didnt sleep the previous night so we all ended up snoring for 40min on the bus. which had air con and felt really nice. heh. so we went through the usual routine of kayaking stuff, teaching teaching teaching. ah well. then we set off, i paired with nad. it was okay i guess... probably the most fun part of the kayaking was getting caught in the middle of the sea in a heavy storm. damn was that fun or what. i couldnt see anything cause the rain stung my eyes. so i was kind of paddling blindly. and also it was so fricking cold that i was shivering. haha. FUN. anwyays the rain passed away 15min after that... sad... wanted it to be longer. heh. so we kayaked and kayaked and ended up on pasir ris beach. and man did i want to go loyang ave from there or what.i felt really uncomfortable cause of the stupid singapore waters+ the kayak fibre glass. so that sucked. ended up staying up till 1 something 2 talking to nadiah on the bench and in the end i slept on the bench. it was nice and cold. heh. nice experience.

DAY 3:
woke up and basically cleaned up the area and set out for changi sea sports club. hmm after settling down and showering, we went to begin our land ex. haha. it was okay i guess. but then dad's running shoe that i was using the sole came off. haha. oh wells. the funniest part was actually getting lost on the way back. cause we went to eat macs. then we were slacking until 8pm. so we decided to go to the camp site. started out. and then we took a wrong turn. and then we ended up on the OTHER side of pasir ris park, Aloha Chalet. man that was so damn funny. the entire group 5. so we waited for the shuttle out. and then while waiting, we took group photos, sat on the beach chair in front of the pool, used the toilets. HAHA damn funny. we were like THIS IS YLTC. YEAHHH. anyways we got back at like 930. and all the tents were pitched already. haha and the teachers were like SO THIS IS THE CHAMPION TEAM. hahaha. but it was really fun. so in the end slept on the benches again... and had to wake up at 5am for sentry duty. quite boring. walked around with nadiah and xin yi talking nonsense. heh.

DAY 4:
this was the BEST day of the camp. haha. so we woke up and kept everything. it was going to rain so we packed up doubly fast and we left the camp earlier than usual. set off for our checkpoints. so basically we finished the first one fairly easy. then came the second one. haha we had to go to pierce reservoir. didnt know upper or lower. so in the end went to upper. WRONG WAY. HAHAHAHAHA. ah well. oh yeah in the first check point we were at lim chu kang. heh. AND I CAUGHT A FROG. SUCK ON THAT. hahahaha. it was quite fun actually. yeah and we hitch hiked for the first time in my life. haha. so back to pierce. we hitch a ride all the way up realising that it was the fricking wrong place. then the guys who we hitched a ride from told us that we could cut across the golf course opposite and walk down to get to lower pierce. hahaha. so we were like THANK YOU and walked with all our shits. ended up we were walking on the fricking fairway, for a bloody 2 hours. HAHAHA couldnt find our way out. so we stopped at the clubhouse to go toilet, and i took like 10 plastic bags. hahaha. souvenier! anyways we finally got out of the nature trail to find a group of people warming up to go in. like those kind of organised company outings? and the leader was saying it should take 1 hour and it isnt that hard. dont worry! have fun! and we were walking through them SO dead. haahhaha. they were smiling and laughing. and we were smirking saying GOOD LUCK! HAVE FUN!. hahahaha. that was funny...

basically that was the highlight of day 4. but in the night it was quite fun also. I CHANGED THAT GUY FROM GROUP 1's LIFE. he tucks in like CHIENSE HIGH. haha. and then i was like dude, why do you tuck in? and from then on, HE TUCKED OUT. YEAHHHHH. HAHAHAHA I ROCK.

DAY 5:
well day 5 wasnt much. just that we slept at 1am after day 4, and woke up at 3am to go for a fucking 15 km run. yeah. not bad i guess. my hamstrings are SOOOOOO screwed now. hahaha.
oh well. so basically i reached home at 10am. yeap. and now im here.

gonna get the pictures later on. weehee. yltc was actually quite fun. quite an eye opener for land expedition.

...my scripts end...
~~yltc! TNT!~~

2006-11-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

okay.

i think i officially am a fucking gay magnet.

everyday also kena. this sucks man. i need to wear long sleeve tmr. fuck.

...my scripts end...
~~gay update~~

2006-11-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

i just saw a sign board not too long ago. its a maid agency. and it says DIRECT FROM SUPPLIER. this got me thinking. when did we treat maids or domestic helpers as commodities? as though they are GROWN in a warehouse? has it never occured to you? we go in, go see a video of the maid, look at their portfolio and pick them. i mean thats quite bad but understandable. but WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE DAMN PEOPLE WRITING DIRECT FROM SUPPLIER? i feel that its really bad. especially the way kids are treating their maids now, its becoming with less respect. i mean they come here on their own will to help feed their families, but in the end they get shit? the other time i heard this small kid, hes about 8 and he goes telling his friend when his maid is beside him, "nevermind, the maid will cleanup". what the hell? man no respect at all. i always respect and admire maids who come here and earn money trying to help out their family. because the way they are treated by some employers is extremely terrible. damned singaporeans.

anyways work today was fun. 4th day at work. and ive sold 4 insurance booklets. not bad. haha it was fun anyway. talked to my colleagues alot and stuff like that. it really is an eye opener to anyone schooling kids. but then singaporean kids are too pampered to work arent they? even 18 year olds arent willing to work, instead they bum at home when they've got 6months to spare. sheesh. another fact to note about singaporean kids. this is why ang moh kids will always have that edge over singaporean kids. we are too pampered and live in our comfort zone too much. a little bit of harshness and they say 'eee dont want.' but instead, ang mohs rough it out on their own, willing to accept and go out. guess its just culture. singaporean culture is just too pampered. with all that kiasu kiasee kiabo shit. its just so over protective, singaporean parents. sighs. guess that will never change.

OH. and a book i saw at kino liang court today. go READ "THE GAME" or "WHY DO MEN HAVE NIPPLES". very informative books. suitable for people aged 15 and above. screw it. YOUNG KIDS SHOULD READ IT TOOO. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

...my scripts end...
~~come get your shoe~~

2006-11-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

first day of work.

man my back hurts like crap. haha. muscle wants to die. and i woke up too early today. sheesh. well so much for training. in the end they dumped me to make phone calls to passengers for some pre-tour briefing. spoke for so long without water and toilet break. even the girl beside me was astounded. heh. ah well. fun nonetheless. interesting really, the office life. its an eye-opener. besides, im doing this for my xbox 360. i think i'll forget the altec lansing speakers. just wait till i get enough cash for some Bang & Oleson (is that how you spell it?) ones. yeap.

anyways. i still need people to buy tickets. yup. (= please buy! support me. dont be some assenine asshole who said something about YES I WANT A YEAR END PARTY FOR IP2s and in the end not even buy. bloody hypocrits.

oh yeah. dont be sad you! its just one paper. if you got everything else correct, you still can get that A1. (= dont worry!

...my scripts end...
~~DONT WORRY~

2006-10-27T17:28:00.000+08:00

hi hello.

today is friday. and our off-in-lieu. so technically yesterday was the last day of school. interesting enough. anyways today is hsuante's birthday. so just to say happy birthday to him.

alright. down to the crux of my post.

many people say that SINGAPOREAN KIDS ARE PAMPERED. and they go on saying about how we cannot iron our own clothes, cook our own food, take care of our ownselves. which is kind of true. i mean honestly. how many of your friends can do all that. very few i think. but yeah.

so we all suck and all that. true. and everyone says that. all the adults. BUT DO THEY REALISE SOMETHING? the only reason why we are this way, is because parents are over protective over us. they restrict us to doing stuff. NO DOING THIS. NO DOING THAT. NO YOU CANT GO OUT. blah blah blah. so basically, the only reason why we are so dependent on them is because they dont give us the opportunity for us to be independent. agree or not? gah its just a thought.

another thing to note. kiasu. the coolest word to describe singaporeans. man it could totally be seen on like public transports. like mrt. people CRAM in without waiting for people to come out. as though the doors will close immediately right after opening. heh. ever seen that? its really amusing. foreigners see it and go GEEZ. THIS IS HOW SINGPOREANS BEHAVE? haha. GREAT public persona that we portray ourselves as. =D

oh and one more thing. THE PARTY TICKETS. PLEASE BOOK YOUR TICKETS. DETAILS ARE BELOW THIS POST. THANKS.

...my scripts end...
~~haze is gone~~

2006-10-20T18:42:00.000+08:00

MY BAD.

Party at The Cube Club for youngsters.

YEAR END PARTY AT THE CUBE CLUB.RELEASE YOUR STRESS FROM THOSEEXAMS.
DATE TO BE THERE - 26th NOVEMBER
TIME TO BE THERE - 9pm to 3am
PRICE OF TICKET - 18 dollars.

FIRST 100 TICKETS GET A DISCOUNT. 1DOLLAR OFF.

its an underage party so its non-alcoholic. pleaseorder your tickets by giving me a message. 1 freedrink along with the ticket. mocktails, fruit punch,soft drink. whatever you like. so long as theres noalcohol.

CONTACT ME NOW IF YOU WANT.

also. i would like to point out that the weather is getting extremely hot due to the stupid haze. gah.

2006-10-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

YEAR END PARTY AT THE CUBE CLUB. 28 november.

18 bucks tickets. 1 drink included.

COME PLEASE. message me for tickets.

2006-10-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

time is such a bitch.

have you sat in class wondering when time would just speed up and you can get on with your life? haha. i always feel this way. sighs. but then the irony is that there are times that you wish that time would slow slow slow slow slow down. ENTIRELY slow down.

how i wish that i could control time.

gah. anyways the roof terrace of the esplanade is really nice. windy. but the haze is crap. oh yeah wanted to ask everyone. is it ESPLANADE? or ESPLANARDE?

i think its esplanade. just like lemonade. see NADE. yeah. LEMON - ADE. haha.

oh yeah open day was fun. saw many friends. played some tennis. now my back hurts. gah. I NEED SALON PAS. where is it?

...my scripts end...
~~backache~~

2006-10-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

im feeling that this blogskin is getting abit too emo for me. i need a new skin.

but im too lazy to look.

so forget it. im not emo by the way.

okay ONE stupid thing i did today. well was coming home from uncle raymond (maths tuition) and was walking along the pavement. then they cordoned it off due to some works they had to do on the shelter. so i was like wtf. so big round i have to walk. AH what the heck. cut through this bunch of bushes and walk across. SO I HAD TO DO THAT. attempted walking through. got stuck in the bush. cause all the branches caught on to my clothes and stuff. and i was like FUCK. okay yeah i did swear. im vulgar BIG deal. anyways then it was like OUCH OUCH OUCH. and i lifted up my shirt and LO AND BEHOLD! it was A SCRATCH. okay dumb thing.

either ways. i was coming home on the bus, and i started to think. man that auntie talks really loud and chor loh . sighs.

SO I HAVE COMPILED A LIST OF PEOPLE I HATE ON THE BUS.

the 7 kinds of people i hate:
1) chor loh people who speak loudly
2) people who blast music on their phone
3) people who have smelly perfume
4) people who fart
5) people who push their way through the crowds unnecessarily
6) people who flag down the wrong bus
7) people who take ages to get on the bus and off the bus (this excludes the handicapped and old people)

the 5 kinds of people i like:
1) people who get off quickly
2) people who mind their own business
3) people who smell nice
4) people who give up their seats for others
5) people who are polite

yup. so i was sitting down and this woman passed by me. AND I SWEAR. SHE SMELT LIKE THE AIR FRESHENER IN MY TOILET. the aerosal can that i use to spray after i take my dump. yeah. that. she stank.

anyways the last list.

THE ONE PERSON I DONT CARE ABOUT:
1) YOU.

haha nahh kidding. anyways later. off to read my fricking 17 emails that gavel sent me in ONE day. what great fun.

...my scripts end...
~~rawr~~

2006-10-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

man feeling bored sucks really.

i feel that today is a sunday and tomorrow is the beginning of assessment week. but then it is as though my wait is getting extremely agonising. anyone want to like chat or talk on the phone or ask about stuff please do not hesitate to call me. im bored.

anyways, right to the topic of these days. the wonderful haze.

LET US ALL BLAME THE INDONESIANS. okay let us way out both sides. after all, every coin has 2 sides right?

okay the side to protect the indonesians:
they burn the ground for efficient clearing of land for farming. this makes the ground arable for plantations. and it saves cost as you do not need manpower to do this. just light a match and POOF. LAND!

the side i want to bitch about:
well, for one thing, the PSI is 150 now. and we've got them to thank for? people getting asthma attacks, lung problems, breathing problems. all because of some irritable cheapo farmer's joy. his inconsiderate burning has posed a problem to at least 40million people. ah wells.

assessment week in 2 days. jiayou everyone! kick some ASS.

oh and something really wicked. my sister won the korean speech contest today. brought back a really tall medal and a 32 inch Samsung LCD tv. heh. be jealous y'all. and ive got a new 42 inch tv too. suck on that y'all.

...my scripts end...
~~later on in life~~

2006-10-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

i just realised some funny thing. you know those army medallions awarded for like bravery courage or some exceptional deed you did? they all are because you went against orders and came back alive. its funny. they usually punish you for it. but instead they award you shit. and also, they say FOLLOW MY ORDERS! then you disobey them. weird aint it?

okay after receiving all those notes in class. im feeling that its really sweet. =]

so i would like to thank the class for being such wonderful people! i think our class is the best class in the level man. well most people would say that their own class is. but then what the hell. haha. anyways heres something that mel tee sent me and it brightened up my afternoon so i would like to share it with you too. =D

sweet is it not? now go on and pass this on to someone.

...my scripts end...
~~school isnt everything~~

2006-09-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

today i was like chatting and doing chem and maths in the living area when i was startled by a flurry of activity at my window. i peered over my shoulder expecting to see something that my maid threw into the living area to scare me. but to my amazement, it was a bird. and it wasnt a canary or a crow or a minor. to me it looked like an eagle. heres a pic.

it DOES look like an eagle right? and the cool thing was that i was like 8cm away from it. and it didnt even fly away. first time "wild" encounter with a wild bird. its pretty aint it?

what a nice day it is today...

...my scripts end...

~~birds~~

2006-09-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

the highlight of the day.

its ironic but yeah. i wanted to skip chinese today. but then in the end decided. ah what the heck just go.

so the first period was spent in 06ip01's class. so we just spent it looking a zuo wen and stuff. talking nonsense. it was fun. then the ip1s came back to their class so we returned to our own class. THERE. we started reading stuff on descriptive writings. quite lame but yeah. was quite stoned. anyways, when we were reaching the end of the lesson, she made us go into our groups and write some descriptive shit. so this is what we came up with. haha. thanks to joel and colin (ideas) and jade's english.

its abit small but yeah.

this was the picture that we drew.

OH. and this is something i did in maths class cause i got overly bored.

the original picture

editted

hope you had a good laugh at it. spent HARD work doing these stuff. haha.

...my scripts end...

~~fun day in school~~

2006-09-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

i was just walking around. and suddenly i was reminded by the incident that happened in the haunted house during funtasia.

there was this ip1 guy who went for the tour with a group of 3 or 4 girls. then he tried to act as though he wasnt scared by acting as though he was nonchalent towards all the props etc. but then, it was so damn obvious that he was so scared. haha. what a loser. and a poser as well.

this brings to my attention. the male ego.

yes. an intrinsic case study. the male ego consists of solely a guy's pride. nothing is more powerful and sensitive that a guy's pride. you can whack the shits out of him, steal his girlfriend, smash his car. so long as it doesnt damage his pride, it aint that bad. dont believe me?

go and make fun of a guy you know in front of tons of people. or do anything that you know who make his ego deflate like shit. then take a look at his face. then you'll know.

but then im not telling you to do it. do it at your own will. haha. ANYWAYS. back to the topic. a man's pride. it can propel him to the top, save lives, and do many other great things. but once he loses it, he can never do anything with much courage anymore.

THUS, that is why teachers in jc now humiliate people in class. cause scolding us would only incur the wrath of us students. we'll trash their car, eat their life up. chew it up, and spit it out. so they humiliate us. damage our pride so that we dare not speak again. smart eh?

im not saying that guy's are the only ones with egos. but girls do have it too. but then the average girl usually relies on her emotions and feelings. a guy usually relies on his ego. get the drift?

if you dont. then you are a retard.

...my scripts end...
~~yes yes ive got a huge ego~~

2006-09-22T18:32:00.000+08:00

have you ever waited just for tomorrow to come. like sat there. thinking how messed up things were. and looked forward to tomorrow. either that or you were really excited about tomorrow thus just waiting for it.

i believe all of us have. from the minor birthday parties, to the dreaded exam results, to other things.

i for one thing am looking forward to tomorrow. for both reasons. cause i had a crappy day and im playing tennis tomorrow. need to vent out my frustrations. heh but one thing dumb i did today was walk into the door. so much for trying to move at a quick pace and open the door at the same time. thus resulting in me kissing the door. luckily no one saw me. but then, no one really pays attention.

saw yan wen in school today. its nice to see some seniors around. brings back some memories of last year.

tomorrow. filled with so much more opportunities, so much more hope, and the ever looming inevitable disaster. man i think having these feelings about hoping that tomorrow would cure everything is kind of dumb. if we have problems, solve it now. dont run away from them, it'll only make things worse. im guessing majority of you who read my blog know that running away from your troubles does nothing. but then what can do something?

are you willing to sacrifice something to do that problem, or will ignorance just save your conscience until some day it returns to haunt you and you just continue that ignorance. would that work?

i have always and i still believe in solving your problems on that day itself. thus the reason why i usually try not to procrastinate things. such as your homework or projects or responsibilities. but then recent happenings made me realise that certain things cannot be solved on that day itself. or can we? can we put down our pride, not care about others and just give everything at a fullblast. like a shotgun. blast everything at one shot. sure you'll feel better. but then the after effects would make you feel alot worse.

i always think that answering back wittily is funny. makes others think you've got the guts and all. but then it also hurts the other person. especially when its a crude comment. so should we swallow our pride and bite our tongue?

so all these problems just point back to singapore. there are various things that we cannot speak about. but will we swallow our pride, swallow our anger, hide our emotions and just let tomorrow take care of it? should we? or should we voice out our opinions and make that second feel extremely good?

...my scripts end...
~~tomorrow~~

2006-09-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

THANKS TO RAYSHIO'S MSN SCHOOL. SOMEONE HAS LEARNT THE ART OF STUFF.

well my student that is. has an extremely advanced talent. she is SOOOOOOO talented! yeah. gets everything i say and can use it too! HAHAHA.

whee. so now i quote.

xian says: i think cocks are more fun!

HAHAHA. okay first thing was talking about guys hurting when they get whacked in the nuts. then she said that girls boobs hurt abit. BUT "i think cocks are more fun!"

NEXT.

xian says: i think cocks are more fun! says:
they are MUCH MORE interesting than boobs

then...

xian says: i think cocks are more fun! says:
why shouldnt i like dicks? theyre HARD.

okay. sick. hahaha. *weeping from laughter*

...my scripts end...
~~horny~~

2006-09-16T17:57:00.000+08:00

i think my computer loves me. although it always pms-es in front of me.

why do i say so? okay here is the deal.

so i am deciding to turn the computer off. so im like OKAY. lets go watch tv or sleep or something. *signs out of msn* JUST as im about to click TURN OFF. iTunes plays one of my favourite songs. and being the song fanatic i am, i leave the computer on and listen. and sooner or later, im back on msn. heh.

just a thought. cause i was about to off it when it just happened. now the song is still playing. so i need to do something to kill time. haha. so for all those curious people, the song playing now is gorillaz- feel good inc. and for all those wankers who have never heard that song. you really really really are a deprived person. go stick your head into the toilet bowl or something. OH OH its ending. hope the next song doesnt make me stay...

...my scripts end...
~~the song ends NOW~~

2006-09-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

it is those little knitty gritty little details that make life so amusing and fun. and makes me cherish my friends more.

on a lousy and boring friday like today... i would like to thank the dinosaur that ate up my frog on the way to school for that fun escape from BOMBS. yeah well. here is how it went. we were all so stoned. walking... walking after lunch. 2hr to kill. so it was like. okay lets go. i was heading up the stairwell when charlyn said LETS WALK IN THE RAIN. i looked at her. and said OKAY. -walks to the sheltered area- O.O wow. the rain seems heavy. walks out 3 steps. *stops*. HMM. TOO HEAVY. forget it. -turns around and walks the other way- then it hit me. if i keep being so humchi, my life would be so fricking boring. SO WHAT THE HECK. LETS GO. just when we began to walk in the rain, the siren rang. and i said can we run? the rain is so heavy. so running through the rain, splashing into puddles. heh. returning back to class, jiayi informs us that the j1 class was laughing at us. WHY? i had no idea till like 5 min ago. when yirong informed me that it was her class that was laughing at us. let me quote.

oh crud. i closed the window. but i have good memory. SO.

yirong: the civics lesson, our civics tutor told us that YES it is romantic taking walks in the rain. but please refrain from doing that cause you might fall sick during your promos. and then. after saying all that. my class sees you and your friend taking three steps out into the rain. and then they burst out laughing. then you walk back in. then the siren rings, and you start running out. (then something about BOMBS)

well here is the story that charlyn and i have.

hellomehnus(; says:
why, surely they mock us not?
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
hahaha
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
course they do
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
the bombs were coming!
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
we had no choice but to run

hellomehnus(; says:
theyre just jealous!
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
of course
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
we knew that the bombs were coming
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
they didnt
hellomehnus(; says:
AHAHAHA
hellomehnus(; says:
we escaped with lives,
hellomehnus(; says:
and pride.
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
YES
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
AND
[buddha jump over the wall™©] jump serve and volley. says:
wet clothes...
hellomehnus(; says:
and wet feet.

aha! see the prowers of the mighty duo?

it is the stupid little things that you do that make you smile when you look back on your life...

...my scripts end...
~~smile~~

2006-09-14T19:41:00.000+08:00

was thinking about getting a new blogskin. this is getting too "emo" by my standards. but then... i cant find any other one. anyone willing to make me one? heh. im bored of school... its boring.

tennis is fun.

and nothing more to say.

im watching running wild now. demand tv rocks.

i realise that we walk around in life. but for what? what is the reason why we study each day. why we mug. why we take exams. why we resort to letting ourself be smashed by homework and all the other randomn shit. i can never find the reason why we do this. why we have to toil for our future. why we fight every day just to work our butts off. if only life were alot simplier...

im getting a headache. sighs. fridays are a waste of time... like totally. 2h+ just to wait for chem. heh. oh wells.

...my scripts end...
~~fight for what?~~

2006-09-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

using sis's laptop now. its pretty good. dont understand why she doesnt want it. or shes just messing around. ah well.

highlight of the day. laughing at the yong tau fu aunty who had died red hair which looks like she doused her hair with the yong tau fu chilli. and her face was red as well. so well... with her permed hair. she looked. REALLY red. next thing was an ip1 who was drinking milo with 3 straws. man.... damn stupid. ah well.

funny things that happen in school. make school worthwhile to go? hmm... maybe...

man i wish that my life were to revolve around tennis and sports. thatd be so much more relaxed and fun. but then it isnt possible isnt it. only if im good at it that is... which is impossible.

so begins the countdown to assessment week. 26 days and counting...

...my scripts end...
~~time to mug~~

2006-09-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

i realised how much fun it is to play tennis again today.

came up with so many styles of play in doubles... my favourite. the jumping serve and volley. whee. that one was fun... need a cam next time. cam whore. and see all my shots. ought to be nice. yup.

seems like watching prince of tennis kinda got me back into the interest. STUPID yeah i know. but i love the feeling of a serious match. and playing my best. and that STUPID anime which is almost impossible to do certain shots certainly made me realise how much i loved the sport. yup. man... cant wait for next year's nationals. i will not lose anymore matches. work on it.

dude. waiting for that doubles match man. we need to whoop some asses. btw. our blog is getting quite dead.

...my scripts end...
~~the love of the game~~

2006-09-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

man. PT really kills your body. i slept at 9pm last night. a record for the holidays.

or crud. i forgot what i wanted to say.

OH YES. WHY ON EARTH AM I BLAZING MUGGING IN THE HOLS?! its the hols. and i have no idea why im mugging when assessment week is 5 weeks away. i dont feel any urgency. just feel like mugging.

...

am i absorbing the njc spirit? lol. mug mug mug. mugging is good for you. gah. thus the reason why i decided to screw mugging. and play computer. actually i just couldnt find anything to mug. or didnt wanna mug anything. lol. later then

...my scripts end...
~~tired~~

2006-09-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

okay. disclaimer. the previous post HAD something. until it got erased for some reason or another....

aite.

i never realised how unfit i was until today. okay here is the paper theory that we planned the other day.

10 suicides below 14s
10 sets of 7 ball run below 16s
4*4*30s of rack
4*30 chin-on-ball pushup
4*30 jump lunges on each leg
8 min of 3lvls 5s crunches
30 min run

seemed extremely possible. the 10 suicides would be slightly okay. the rack would be entirely fine. the crunches would be slightly painful. the pushups would be painful. the 7ball runs would be tiring. and the jump lunges would kill. and the 30min would be okay...

BUT

things dont usually turn out as you plan it. here is what we ended up doing.

10 sets of suicides under 15s. with one or 2 of them overshotting just by abit.
4*4*20s rack
3 to 4min of crunches
3*15 jump lunges on each leg
33 pushups
1 7ball run

yeap. thats about it. hmm lets see. that is... about 1/6 of the plan. okay shall try harder tomorrow.

man... its been 1mth and about 1 or 2 weeks already and my ankle STILL hasnt fully healed. really think that i should go visit the sinseh again. hmm should i?

i have no idea why i am mugging. i just am... its scary. you feel me?

...my scripts end...
~~scared~~

2006-09-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

2006-09-03T20:02:00.000+08:00

i suddenly am unsure whether IP is actually good for us or not. the integration of the sciences is a really bad idea. jumping from one topic to another and this does not allow us to get the basics right. especially in chemistry. well that is how i feel. :/ dont know about you but i think there are quite number of questions that the teachers dump at us which i am sure that they havent taught us the topic yet. or at least that part.

ah wells.

anyways change topic. went to watch snakes on a plane on tuesday. not a bad film. what was funny was actually xinwei was asked whether she was 16 many times before she entered the cinema. and i wasnt! haha. i knew im more mature than her. heh. the movie was good i guess. quite exciting... and painful. the guy got bit by a poisonous snake on his jimmy. guys. just imagine that. painful? heh what was more amusing is that... the movie was in LIDO 1. and there was only 5 people including me and xinwei in the movie. heh. if anyone wants to watch a horror flick in that kind of circumstances.... damn.

today went to COMEX to get a new HDD. need to get instructions on how to format my 250gb hdd. ottherwise it wont work. gah... lets just use the external port first. :/ after that i went over to noodles place to hit some balls. man... stamina is really shit. hit for about 30min then i died. couldnt do 5 suicides. couldnt do 1 round around the court of 5s lunges. geez. ive been slacking too much. need to get my stamina up. now to plan that 6km route around my estate. that should do it. along with more crunches. more pushups. more suicides. more lunges. hmm... lets start after assessment week. anyone up for it?

gah. i shall try to do the rest of my chem hw now. later gators.

...my scripts end...
~~tired~~

2006-08-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

gah. im cheery. im bored. so what better things than to go search for lame things on the internet.

here is BACKSTROKE OF THE WEST....

episode iii, the backstroke of the west
i saw revenge of the sith last weekend at a local theater with my friend joe who was in town on business. it was much better than the first two movies and a fitting end (err.. middle) to the star wars saga.the next day i was walking past my friendly dvd salesperson and decided to check out revenge of the sith. i was assured the quality was good and for 7rmb why not give it a shot.aside from the counters on the top of the screen and a distorted perspective it was ok- not high quality but watchable. the captions were a hilarious surprise- a direct english translation of the chinese interpretation of what the script was saying. it varied from being somewhat close to the script to being 'far far away'.... (go look at the pictures) http://www.winterson.com.nyud.net:8090/2005/06/episode-iii-backstroke-of-west.html

hmm. thats the backstroke of the west.

omg. heres something REAL funny.

2006-08-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

hola sum sum people.

nope. no theories today. well tonight. almost tomorrow anyway.

was just thinking...

whether making a PT schedule for the tennis team would be good... might work for all we know...

...my scripts end...
~~never say die~~

2006-08-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

shoving the bimbo mindset away, i have come up with a new fascination.

superstitions.

yes some people believe them. some others dont. in fact MANY people believe them. those kind of grandmothers tales. like your friday the 13th and stuff like that. what do you guys think? okay i believe some of them. but i find it really dumb. these superstitions are somewhat like a religion. in what way you might ask? okay. supestitions are beliefs about certain things. like the horseshoe believe. that if you keep a horseshoe with you, it will give you good luck. but point is that these beliefs are unproven. and they cannot be proven on a scientific manner. why is that so? the occurrence of your "believes" occur on an unfrequent basis. meaning that it doesnt always happen. SO by the philosophy of science blah blah blah...

anyways. i question how these grandmother tales came about. in my opinion. the only reason why its called a grandmother tale. is because some really weird people came up with it. okay. imagine this. as insecure as every human is, so lets say someone died in the house number 13. so we associate anything "dark" withit. OH. IT MUST BE THE NUMBER. and so the day. and the number. the main reason is because people are insecure and they want something to be responsible for it or something to be the cause of it. if you see it from another angle, the secure people dont give a shit about these things.

what is worse, is that these superstitions are powered and fueled by the power of the media and the masses. through movies, through dramas, through radio etc. then people spread it. its a massive wide catastrophe. if you realise, everyone has their own superstitions. and they spread it. and what is more, there are a few main ones that almsot EVERYONE believes. so lets say, the number 13 on a house. people wont buy it cause of beliefs. then those insecure people wont buy cause they think that in the future if they were to sell the house, no one would buy. so what happens? no one buys because of the number 13. lol.

maybe it doesnt make sense to be. but i find it really stupid. grandmother tales and all. this is what happen when housewives have nothing better to do.

anyways. team chocolate has advanced to the next round in the captains ball team. come on guys! and girls. and monster. hahaha.

...my scripts end...
~~tired~~

2006-08-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

haha. okay mel. you won. no wait. terence won. he put 5. :D haha. and dude. YOU ARE ON. though i'd choke and die. then you gotta give me CPR. HAHAHA.

mondays are extremely tiring. i hate mondays. why? firstly, its the second longest day in my entire week. and it has double period of chinese. and whats the most awesome part of it? I SLEPT DURING CHINESE TODAY. lol. chinese test was what, 1h long? i finished it in about 30 to 40min. then i slept. lol. suprisingly i managed to sleep. only to wake up at the last few minutes by almost knocking down my phone. it was seesawing on the table edge. i was like HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHH! SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT! lol. great reaction eh? haha. ah well. the test is only 10% and its upon 50. so this means. 5 marks gets you one mark. lame huh? ah well.

gah. ms chue told me to tell team chocolate members to go down for matches today at 4.50pm. guess what. the matches were scheduled for tmr. im like wtf wtf wtf. lol. anyways gave me a reason to go late for TLL. ((= haha. played bball. tennis got owned by 3 bballers and 1 netballer. ah well. THATS why we are in tennis eh? haha.

glory road is a really good movie. everyone should watch it. i just found out that i cant watch inspirational sports films before bed. makes me dreaming about tennis finals etc. bullshit.

anyway. this concludes my bimbotic post on the daily happenings of my life. look forward for a theory in the next post. i hope... yes i am a bimbo. whatever...

...my scripts end...
~~my left leg is itchy~~

2006-08-20T11:19:00.000+08:00

chubby bunnies. lol. i realised that i only could stuff 4 marshmellows in my mouth before i began choking and about to puke. haha. terence could do 5? lol. and chu beng (is that his name? all i know its CCB lol.) he could stuff 8 to 10 while being able to scold vulgarities. insane. lol. its either that hes really vulgar. or he's just got a huge mouth. well aqua bbq was a blast. fancy thinking that i didnt feel like going right before i was about to leave.

well back to my point of blogging.

the progression of the pop music culture. its been really funny. so at first, you've got the hip 90's. where pop was making a breakthrough. then you get awesome dance videos from n sync and usher. then later you get strip tease videos from christina and britney and madonna. then slowly and gradually, the songs and music videos became emo. so you get like rain + emo song effect. the "pop" in music culture began to die down. it became more emo and classy. so now you get songs from nelly and christina which introduce a fusion between jazz and pop. with a marylyn monroue (pardon the spelling) look.

its funny. we progressed from that jazzy 60's look to somewhat a more hip and fashionable 90's. then slowly, we are reverting back to the 60's. this makes me think. if this is what happens after 30 years. we start returning to our roots, what will happen in future?

i mean, okay so lets say, our next generation finds our music such as westlife singing oldies as the "oldies". so they intend to make "pop" back. so we get scantily clad girls singing weird ass songs. then slowly AGAIN. they start going emo and classy. then we return to what we are now. a fusion of the 60's.

funny thought aint it?

...my scripts end...
~~why do i keep signing off like this??~~

2006-08-19T16:31:00.000+08:00

i notice that my blogging is highly errectic.

i shant do anything about it though.

but by writing and posting this entry, im doing something about it! heh. i dont know. im feeling abit tired. played past vs present just now. it made me realise something. im more suited for singles. why? here are some reasons.

in doubles, i dont dare to volley. cause. im scared i'll get pegged. somehow i have this phobia of balls coming at your face or your body at high speeds. not very friendly. next, in doubles its all about precision. i realised that i dont have that. also, its all about keeping the ball low unless you are trying to lob.

SO. in singles, you can play at your own speed and your own pace and your own style. no one to change you. and then you can go to the net ONLY when you think its the most advantageous for you. so i'll only go up when the guy is out of position. and then, if you give a popper, the likeliness of him smashing into your face is lesser. cause theres the ENTIRE court. yeap. i think i'll play singles next year. did decently well this intermediate tournament. no idea if i should play again... see how.

i realised that njc and sji tennis were very strong. note. WERE. now sji tennis is getting better. njc tennis is down slope. ever since i came in. lol. and its kind of all my fault. for both nationals. gah. i hate guilt. makes me want to play better. well MADE. now i just want to play a good game. only then will you not be afraid of losing. yup.

oh yeah. ever since i joined gavel. i became very aware of brain farts. yes. brain farts. your brain does fart. its like AH UM ERRR. yeah those things. ive become super aware of them. and eye contact is like, natural. guess gavel is good after all. apart from the hell lot of mail i get. otherwise. its okay i guess.

...my scripts end...
~~tired~~

2006-08-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

i have come up with a theory about gays in light of the much gaying occuring during chinese lessons. we do that to keep awake. just so you girls know. its so boring. we cant help it.

either ways.

why do boys touch each other in school?

point is. guys are naturally horny. so they want to touch someone. preferrably a girl. but then that would be called molest or whatever nonesensical stuff you women can think of. so, we resort to the only resources available to us. MEN. yeahhhh.

just to satisfy our horny pleasures. we touch each other. so we are not gay. we are just deprived.

we in this meaning does NOT mean me. i am definitely not gay and i DONT touch men. i touch GROWN men. lol. yeah yeah. whatever.

...my scripts end...
~~men~~

2006-08-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

i got weirdly insane recently. must be all the essays piling up.

i have gotten the weirdest plans lately. waxing.

suddenly while i was doing work yesterday. somehow or another. i started thinking about waxing. then i wondered how it would be like if us guys wax. haha. soooo. WHOS UP FOR LEG WAXING? haha. im selling my hair for one strip of wax for $10. just try not to make me bleed. yeah i heard from charlyn that it will hurt like nuts and it might bleed. but what the heck. $10 for some strip of hair. YEAHHH.

im still offering someone to wax their ARMPIT(s). on condition that it is in class and it is hairier or equivalent to mine. $10. anyone?

...my scripts end...
~~essay pileup~~

2006-08-14T20:04:00.000+08:00

no idea what to blog. so i shall just rip what i wrote in school for the discussion forums on the "indifference" of teenagers.

'Indifferent' teens Posted : 01/08/2006 04:30:44PM
Youths in Singapore just cannot be bothered, a survey done by The Straits Times and Hwa Chong Institution seems to tell. Youths here topped the list for being bored in class, not caring about their nation's progress and being the most likely to want to emigrate. The online survey polled 2,071 youths, aged 13 to 19, from top schools in Singapore, China, India, Japan and Malaysia.
More youths here - 17 per cent - than elsewhere said what they were learning had 'little or no use' for the future. This is compared to 9 per cent in Japan and 4 per cent in Malaysia. However, one principal interviewed stated that his students were sent on work experience attachments at a variety of organisations, including law firms, banks, hospitals, universities and medical research firms to pick up the `soft skills' needed for working life.
When asked what was most important to them, 95 per cent of Singapore's youths picked the well-being of their families or their personal development. Only 4 per cent chose the country's progress, whereas in India and Malaysia, the figures were 32 and 35 per cent respectively. Youths here show little concern for politics. Only one in 10 said they were 'very interested' in politics, compared to Malaysia, where the number was 27 per cent. Also, two in three would never take part in politics.
Students however, did not feel that they are 'bochap'. They state that they are aware of issues concerning Singapore's progress; but there is nothing they can actually do at this stage. The associate professor with National University of Singapore said: 'Our country's ethos emphasises self-reliance and responsibility towards our own family.' He added, however, that this emphasis on individual responsibility has to be balanced with 'developing social solidarity', so 'we can strengthen the bond between young people and the nation'.
What are your views? How do we engage the youth of today to have more fervour for the nation?

my reply:

In my opinion i feel that there are a few factors contributing to the fact that us teens are fairly indifferent to happenings around us besides those that involve ourselves directly. I feel that the main problem at hand is the structured education system within our country.

yes i do not deny that despite the structured education system in singapore, singapore's education system is one of the best in the world, churning out high academic scorers. However, if you note something, out of all these top scorers, how many of them are creative and are able to think practically and out of the box? Partially because of this, students have revolved our lives around education since it is Singapore's only resource that is available to all. I am not and i cannot blame singapore for doing so. Singapore has propelled its society and economy to an international standard, becoming one of the major cities in asia through human development.

True enough, we should continue this, however, by involving students in discussions or more "real-world" affairs besides the classroom requirements, this might being about an improvement in a teenager's indifference.

So i am suggesting a few areas of improvement within singapore's education infrastructure.
Currently, there are a few education systems that are running in singapore schools i.e. the integrated programme, the mainstream programme and the international baccleurate programme. pardon the spelling. The mainstream programme focuses on developing the students acadmical skills to score in examinations. But the true question is whether they will score in life? i give an estimated percentage of 30% of teenagers who know who are entire parliament and cabinet ministers are. 60% of teenagers who know who our president and prime minister is. And about 10 to 30% who only know one or two ministers in singapore's legislative system. That is the key problem in singapore. Students are not "trained" in general knowledge.

Truth to be told, we are only "trained" in this sector in junior college when we take general paper. however, would it not be too late? if the school systems start teaching students from probably primary 3, and training them for the basic knowledge of our ministers or major political/world affairs, our general knowledge would not only increase but also singaporeans would stand to gain in the working arena in the future.

I believe that singapore's "drilling" education system can teach students to be exam savvy. With this same system, it can teach students to know of political/world affairs. It is never too young to start with knowledge of world happenings. Probably we should just get the basic of our cabinet in first. that would be a huge leap from the current stagnant problems that we have in our teenagers nowadays.

I agree that the integrated programme or the international baccleaurate programme cannot be implemented into every school. Not everyone in singapore is suited to the this programme. The integrated programme and the IB programme explores many areas in both our and international societies through projects, movies and lessons. this enhances knowledge through classroom activity. perhaps this kind of system could be implemented slowly in the mainstream as well. It would also bring about the gain of general knowledge.

then comes the issue of the "boring" classes. why is that so? like it was said in the above paragraphs, singapore's education system is structured. it is the same old routine of drilling with work over and over and over and over again. oh come on, wouldnt anyone get bored? in this age where education is the key to your future success, we cannot do anything else but study. our life revolves around school. is it not true? teachers call school our "second home". we stay in school for over 8 hours. with ccas, after school activities and sometimes extrememly long lessons. one thing is that we are tired, another is that we are sleepy from all the over-piling homework and assignments. how can anyone not be bored?

Yes, we study smart. but are we ready for the future with the skills that we learn in school? Compared to students in america, our creativity and mindset is totally different mainly because of the education system. our skills are for exams. american system hones future skills, thus you get more entreprenuers there compared to that of in singapore. why do we value foriegn expatriate help over our singapore help in terms of creative designs etc? that is because they have been trained to have broader mindsets compared to ours. we cannot compare to them.

true enough, we are much ahead in exam smartness. however, when it comes to life skills and work skills, do we still remain the forerunners?

yup. thats what i wrote. long i know. was meant to be that way. was aiming for the longest entry. haha.

...my scripts end...
~~this is no angsty blog~~

2006-08-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

philips cup.

Malaysian All-Stars vs Melbourne Tigers(W)
Argentina(W) vs Slovenia
Spain(W) vs Serbia-Montenagro

i blew 6 hours on the trip there, the matches and the trip back. but it was worth the time nonetheless. the atmosphere was kind of weak excluding the spain match. that one had some intensity in the audience. but still weak nonetheless. but HEY. i got to see pau gasol, ginobilli and other stars. enough of a treat for me. but kind of sad that ginobilli didnt play throughout the whole match. he only had like 10min of play time? 10 to 20? that is less than one half. dissapointment. but it was a really awesome eye-opener. free tickets. heh. hope they hold this again next year. i should be going again.

got to see harland again. he looks pretty much unchanged. more studious now i guess. ah well.

so the tennis guys were kind of complaining why do they have rugby stars, bball stars and NOT tennis stars. WE WANT FEDERROR OR NADAL in singapore man. put it into the ATP books. i swear that i will watch EVERY year.

this week has been nothing short of hectic for me. next week will be no different. lets get cracking babes!

...my scripts end...
~~rainbow shot~~

2006-08-12T11:36:00.000+08:00

this blog is far from being angsty.

angsty would mean bitching about depression and all that stuff. i am not doing that.

what i am doing is elaborating the flaws in life as may have it. take for example. the one about moralities. then we have the one about choices. then the one about memories... etc.

please discard any thoughts of angsty stuff about me for i have attained a level of wisdom whereby i rarely talk about my daily routine. i talk about a higher calling...

yeah yeah and all that shit. go eat my dung if you dont want to read. it far better than your blogs anyways. unless its funnier. or its more intellectual. which kind of narrows it down to a few blogs. gah.

mi assignment. oh the funness. the joy. the pain. wait...

i see conflict global storm...
shall go play that first.

...my scripts end...
~~fun~~

2006-08-10T18:41:00.000+08:00

have you ever looked back on your life and wonder what an idiot you were?

hmm somehow i have been doing that alot lately. just seeing the way i typed last time and the things i did. i just feel like drowning myself. if i were someone else looking at me doing the stuff i did in the past, i would have literally hated me. i was so irksome in the past. sheeesh.

okay some examples.

the way i typed. "i lyk 2 c e way tt eu lked... sho kute!" im like wtf? I TYPED LIKE THIS? OMFG. -dies-

ah well. i guess in the future if i see the way i talk and the things i do now, i would do the same. just to deviate abit. i think im going to get a better harddrive. the one ive got now is a fricking 30gb space. and guess what. ive only got 3gb of free space left. wow. cant wait till sis gets her laptop. then id probably get more free space.

back to the point of this entry.

reflection. all of us have looked back on our actions one time or another. but have we actually done something about it to change ourselves? and then the question remains. did we change at all?

i have looked back on memory lane. the place where i once walked. i have tried making changes to better myself. some of these changes work. some dont. so what do i do?

i dont know. im not a guru. go look in the mirror and ask yourself. if you were ever to do something to change yourself. what would it be?

...my scripts end...
~~change~~

2006-08-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

i swaggered from side to side, estactic euphoria pervaded my entire host as though my heart were caroused in a sickened drunk of wine.

i have no idea what that means. just felt like writing that. i need to find the broken saints dvd. wonder if it can get my writing mood back. been a while since i wrote. got like a few stories that are on hold. for at least 1 year already. sighs.

my ankle is on the road of recovery. i can now lean on it and not feel much pressure. should be able to jog tomorrow. i think i'll do some pe. yeap. man i cant wait till i get back on the court. i long for the feel of the racket on the ball.i want to serve and all that whatsoever. sighs. the love of the game.

finally finished my IH report thank god. tougher than i thought it would be. ah well...

nothing much to blog about. nothing much to do. (well actually alot to do but i cant be bothered) later folks.

...my scripts end...
~~whatsoever~~

2006-08-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

aqua wins the NE trophy again. woohoo. 2nd year in NJC. 2nd cup we got consecutive.

cheerleading was a blast. with only ONE single practice session yesterday (and we still did not know the routine) and one this morning. it turned out to be perfect. no dropping. very good catching. wonderful. 70% of the people are actually 05 senior and 05 junior. basically. 04ip05 and 05ip05. haha. we should make this an 05 tradition. that ought to be cool.

its funny how we make friends in the most absurd places. so basically. if you see schoolmates walking around in town, you dont say hi or anything. you just walk on, pretending that they arent there. HOWEVER, when you go to lets say a new school or you get stuck in this desolate place or whatever, you seem to make friends with these strangers in from your school. weird aint it? im just stating a funny observation.

its funny how teachers love to exploit the availability of holidays for their personal gain to make our life miserable. it honestly really is amusing. i laugh at that idea. then i wonder, what are THEY doing during the holidays...

really...

what are they doing?

...my scripts end...
~~yawn~~

2006-08-06T00:16:00.000+08:00

didnt know what to blog. so i decided. what the heck. just put my project 5 speech into here.

The big questions of life.

Why? Who? What? Where? How? Questions. It is so rampant in our every day life. How do you do? What are you doing? Why do you say so? In all these questions, which of these are the correct questions to ask? Take for example, now, the correct question to ask would be, “What are the correct questions to ask?” In life, there are a few questions with the BIG QUESTION mark. Why? That is because someone has yet to find out the answer that appeals to all. These questions are one of the few major discussion topics amongst philosophers and many others. So, what ARE these questions of life?

Ladies and Gentlemen, I ask you, “Why are you here today?” “Why am I here?” “Why am I living?” That is the first correct question in life. “Why are we living?” With that, comes the second question. “What am I living for?” What is my purpose in life? Am I living to be a road sweeper? Am I living to help others? Is my purpose in life to do good and stop evil like all super heroes do? Lastly, the one and most important question in life. “What is the meaning of life?” What is life meant to help us achieve? What are we meant to understand out of life? Let me share with you a little story.

A speaker is giving a speech and a man asks him. “What is the meaning of life?” At this very point of time, the speaker takes out a piece of small, round mirror out of his wallet and said, “I picked this mirror from a side view mirror of a broken motorcycle. With a stone, I made it round and kept it with me. I realised that I could use the mirror and shine light into the darkest places and became fascinated with the game. When I grew up, I realised that this is one of life’s metaphor. We are people whose shape we know not, but this is the meaning of our life – to shine light into the darkest of places.”

If you have read chicken soup for the soul, you would then realise that this story was one of the stories in it.

I cannot offer you the answer to these questions, if I could, I would become the greatest philosopher on earth. However, I can tell you what are the answers to MY own life.

From the moment I took my first breath in this world till the time I die, what exactly is the purpose in my life? Why am I living? Some people believe that it is their religion that they are living for, others believe that they are living for a special someone. I, on the other hand, believe that there is only one reason that is motivating me to continue living; that sole quest for my purpose. I pass each day, looking for that one thing that I am meant to carry out before my time is up in this world.

Why do I live? What is my purpose in life. What is the meaning in life? These are the questions that you should be asking yourself now. Raymond Charles Barker once said, “The principle of life is that life responds by corresponding; your life becomes the thing you have decided it shall be.” Perhaps these questions are predetermined by our thoughts. Only we can answer to our own questions of life. Ladies and gentlemen, I ask you, What is YOUR purpose in life?

Thank You.

...my scripts end...
~~life~~

2006-08-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

honestly. i think that after going through 2 years of secondary education and after having half a year of man and ideas, ip1's mindsets should MATURE. and deviate away from the childish and stupid questions that cloud their void of a brain.

i mean. THINK.

here is a question:

"why do the IPs only get uniform checks. we learnt it from our seniors. shouldnt they check our seniors first?"

okay. OH COME ON. firstly, THEY DO CHECK OUR SENIORS. yesterday morning already had a uniform check during assembly. SECONDLY. even if they check our seniors, our seniors would say OH. ITS UNFAIR. OUR SENIORS TAUGHT US THIS. GO CHECK THEM. and so on. stupid aint it?

next poser.

"njc doesnt invest its money well. what happened to the facilities. someone sat on the LT table and it broke. the facilities are crap"

yes to begin with. i believe that the facilities are shit. but it aint that bad. NEXT. YOU SHOULDNT BE SITTING ON THE LT TABLE. TO BEGIN WITH, THE TABLE AINT MEANT TO BE FOR SITTING ON. I MEAN WHAT THE FARK. ITS A SMALL TABLE FOR YOU TO PUT BOOKS ON. NOT YOUR FRICKING BUTT.

next. you try to be funny. "my friends say that njc has no chio girls..... (*pragnant pause*) but i want to say that i am very proud of this school"

#$&*%!*$%!@*^#%!@*%^#^*$ okay i know i am a very angry person. BUT STILL. WTF? you trying to be FUNNY? disgust reeking...

i know i am a very hypocritical and angry person. dont like me. go ahead. BUT USE YOUR FRICKING BRAIN TO THINK BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING.

...my scripts end...
~~THINK~~

2006-08-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

humans mindset. it fixes what we wish to do whenever we set our minds to anything. do you notice this?

okay let us take for example, you go copy your friend's notes. do you copy word for word? paraphrase it? or copy word for word except that you use shortcuts. if you pick choices 1 and 3. you are normal. if you picked 2. well congratulations. you do not belong to singapore's majority. i myself personally belong to that group of narrowminded freaks.

okay MAYBE i am wrong. maybe the analogy is bad. but still. humans are structured especially singapore's humans. do you not think so? i know i have said this in the front few entries. okay not few. well previous entries. so i shall digress into another field of this matter besides education.

come to think of it. there is very few factors that i can think of. so i shall talk about something else.

CIP.

community involvement project. i have not voiced out this opinion except to gavel club and in my FYE essay in sec 2. anyway.

the bottom line: CHARITY ORGANSATIONS EXPLOIT FREE LABOUR. yes. they do. they exploit the LEAPS system to utilise free manual labour to collect funds for their own cause. don't you realise this?

okay in LEAPS you have to accumulate a certain amount of hours in community service to obtain a pass. and even more to get an A. SO, singaporean society. KIASU. exploit exploit exploit. in the end students are FORCED to carry out these "acts of charity". so the main reason for CIP is to build and nuture a sense of charity in students right? and you get this thing that makes us feel that we are FORCED and it is a CHORE to do it. so what do you think will happen? go figure.

out of how many students doing CIP have you seen one ACTUALLY doing it fruitfully and with the best of his ability. maybe 10%? so what happens to the remaining 90%? oh. its in town or malls right? they go to arcades, shops, cafes and whatever there is to occupy their time to PASS TIME.yup. just for the hours.

the funny thing is that. these organisations fail students that fail to meet the required benchmark. and all that time for nothing. if i were them, i would just give the finger to the whole goddamn project and leave. i mean, its really dumb. id hate these things. and i do.

so... in that time wasted, what could we ACTUALLY HAVE DONE? (not like many people would do it but there is still the possibility). we actually could have been studying, doing homework or catching up on lost sleep. instead of wasting our time on an "F". BESIDES. by donating money to these organisations, who knows if they are building golden taps or not?

i shant say anything political. still it exists. go think about it. how many people really think that flag day is fruitful. i believe in certain CIP activities such as the evergreen camp that my school and hwachong organised. that one was meaningful and fun. what else? CIP day in njc seemed alright. flag day is just dumb. honestly.

however, through flag day it is funny to see how people react. with that can. YOU HOLD UNLIMITED POWER ON A CROWDED STREET. just hold out your can. AND WALK. you will see a pathway opening up like moses and the sea. how people shun you away. and other people who are racist. i met this lady. that day i was doing flag day for a muslim organisation.

i said " hi would you like to donate some money?"
lady (smiles) " what organisation is this for" (reaches into bag for purse)
me "urm. (looks at can) PERTAPIS MUSLIM HOME(or something like that)."
lady (smile fades) "har?! nevermind." (places purse back into bag)
lady walks away.
i stare into the air. WTF?

man these people really piss me off. bloody racist. funny ones are those people. when you are approaching them. they reach for the coins. you get happy. SOMEONE IS DONATING. and when you ask them, they take their hands out of their pockets and walk away. again.. WTF?!

how funny singaporeans are. and i met a really cool angmoh who like donated this HUGE glass trophy cause he didnt need it anymore. awesome. there is the group who donates money. and those who are just asses and give you false hope.

damn. dont i love flag day.

...my scripts end...
~~flagday bullshit~~

2006-07-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

i just noticed that i feel that my eyes are an empty void of nothingness.

i look in the mirror. (yes i am vain). and im like. it looks so empty. lets go buy fillings! HAHAHA. STRAWBERRY IN IT? wonder what itd be like to have pink pupils. anyways. musics like totally blasting now. i can feel my chair vibrate.... hahaha. osim massager.

back to math.

...my scripts end...
~~blasters~~

2006-07-30T13:30:00.000+08:00

friday was a complete waste of time. let me brief you through my timetable on that day.

GS - research stuff. so no teacher came in.
BREAK
PE - screwed ankle. slacked.
LA - ms wong is in stfransisco
GC - did job shadowing day
LUNCH
FREE PERIOD
CHINESE - free period. had 3 lessons in the week
MATH - test
DOUBLE CHEM - practical.

wow. i only started studying at 2.12pm. that was when the test started lol. rest of the time. sit and stone. slack. go high. XD

friday. blown away. if it werent for the math test. i would have called in sick.lol.

anyways.

playing pool for 4 hours DOES in fact kill your legs. lol. especially with a loose ligament in your left ankle. oh well.

studying right after that kills your eyes. especially doing sexual reproduction. NOT DOING. STUDYING. STOP THINKING WRONGLY. sheesh.

...my scripts end...
~~loose ligament~~

2006-07-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

this is going to be a philosophy kind of post. MI got me thinking.

okay. so the dilemma is if you are the by stander standing on top of this whole platform. and then a switch exists beside you. a runaway cart is going on the track. and it is heading towards 5 people. if they were to be hit. they would definitely die. there is no way to stop the cart. except for the switch that changes the track and causes the cart to go on a headon collision with a man on the other side. again, the man would die if he is hit. what would you do?

from what others said, there are two choices. either you flick the switch or not. you flick the switch, 1 guy dies. you dont, 5 people die. okay.

others say that they wont flick the switch because they believe that they are in no position to play god. you cannot decide who dies and who doesnt. fate already saw it coming that these 5 people would die. by pushing the switch, it would be man slaughter. who are we to decide who dies and who doesnt?

then again, if you dont flick the switch and see 5 people die because of you sitting aside, would you not feel guilty after it? to quote seargant scream from "over there" : "the lucky live to feel guilty". i personally would not be able to live with the regret and guilt. yes you can say that if you flick the switch, you will kill the guy. but then it would be "indirectly" killing him. and if you dont flick the switch, you would not be killing anyone. but if you come to think of it. you WILL be killing those 5 people. you have been offered a chance to save 5 lives by sacrificing one life. would you do it? i would. most definitely. okay. then if you flick the switch. you would nonetheless be killing him. no such thing as "indirectly" killing. you very well know that the cart would kill him if you flick the switch.

okay here is my analogy to support my claim.

you shoot a gun. you just pull the trigger. but the bullet kills the person. are you still indirectly killing him? what others say is that "directly" killing him would be to push him down or something. do you necessarily need body contact to kill someone "directly"? in the case of the atomic bomb fat man and little boy. is there a difference between the crew in the bomber and the president who allowed the bombing to occur? the president by signing that form, knows the destructive capabilities of that bomb. and that by allowing the bombing to take place, he will be killing people most definitely. so is he still "indirectly" killing the people?

and then it comes to the crux of the problem. the question of whether you are knowingly doing so or not. so basically. the 5 people there. and you do not know that there was another guy on the other track. so you flick the switch. now that doesnt exist as an ethical issue if the guy dies. i believe that if it is done with complete knowledge of the consequences, ethical issues arise. but then if you had no idea there was someone there, least to say someone dying, you cant be blamed. now could you?

so people say that who are we to decide who is god or not. we cannot judge other people's right to live. i agree with this. to a certain extent. i mean. if you have an immediate family member in that group of 5 people, would you still hesitate to flick the switch? lets say that the family member there is your son. would you still flick the switch and sacrifice that 1 stranger to save your own blood and 4 other people? yes you might say no now. but then what truly matters is at that point of time now isnt it? human nature would just say no now. but then at that point of time, when it is a loved one in danger, you usually forget about these ethical issues to save your own flesh and blood. so now to clarify things. do we still play god?

to make the problem even more complicated, what happens if the 5 people are complete strangers. and then that 1 person on the other track is your son? would you still flick the switch? would you?

...my scripts end...
~~choices on life's
forked roads~~

2006-07-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

man it sucks to sit there and stare into air while you see people playing tennis. i wanna play. sighs.

this ankle is wrecked. ligament is loose. so it hurts to walk around. ah well. the sacrifice i made to give a shot at third round seed 1. heh.

walking around school today. going through lessons. i realised something about silence.

funny thing. some people work well in silence. some people need noise. some people need music. but then. when you come to think of it. being alone and silent is fine. but when you are with someone. its just awkward. i mean. sit somewhere. like you are out with a friend. and both of you just keep quiet. id feel very weird. again, in class, silence is also damn weird. why? because there is hardly silence. take for example, a teacher asks a question and then boom! suddenly everyone just stares into the air. this happens for like 30s. lol .it just gets amusing after that.

human nature to talk alot and then when they are being lectured, they shut their mouth tight. even if they are asked a question, silence still remains. people just talk talk talk talk. sighs. thats what IP is about i guess. its kind of funny. we are noisy at the wrong times, quiet at the wrong times. but then everyone can always count on us to make noise. our enthusiasm precedes that of any other level. interesting?

now comes to scary people. they are those that keep their mouth shut. ever heard the phrase? the empty vessel makes the most noise? yeah so what about the vessels that make NO noise. its just scary. they just sit there. and stare at you. you never know what the hell the are plotting or thinking. its just freaky. brrr....

hope my anle recovers soon. i want to start walking properly.

...my scripts end...
~~ankle busted~~

2006-07-25T18:48:00.000+08:00

its funny how people use obvious things to attempt to strike a conversation. i use this technique too ;)

so today. i walk around school. limping. and everyone asks me. EH. WHATS WRONG WITH YOUR FOOT? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU. i mean. im like. -_-# SPRAIN LAH. WHAT DO YOU THINKKKKKKKK. okay over reaction i know. but still. haha.

anyways i fixed my ankle already. expected it to be of greater pain. but then. she didnt push it to the extreme, my ligament is just loose. and apparrently, its loose to a painful proportion.

bought a reebok bag today. good sports bag. yeap.

okay this is not the reason why i came online to blog. something intellectual. yes.

trying your best.

sounds like the speech thomas gave in the previous gavel chapter meeting. well its something like that.

determination is the key to success. this was what i said before. without determination, we would not be able to acheive anything and success would be just mere fluke. but then. if you acheive something through mere floppiness, would you seem satisfied at the end?

i dont know about other things. i mean. you just any-old-how do your project and you get an A for it. would you be satisfied? i would. but then. when it comes to sports. especially for tennis for me. i mean if i play a shit match. and i win either way. the satisfaction wont be there. if i tried my best and i still lose to a better player. i'd still be satisfied nonetheless.

how many people in life can say they have tried their best? how many? i mean once you have accomplished something, you need to know that what you have done. is absolutely your best and that you have no regrets. but then again, we all do things slip slop fashion dont we? there are things that we cant give a shit about and we just mess around with it. so in the end, we cant say that we have tried our best for everything honestly now can we?

then it comes down to passion. we do our best in whatever things we have passion in. but how long does passion last? ask yourself. how long can you do this thing that you are doing? how long? how long?

...my scripts end...
~~questions~~

2006-07-25T15:08:00.000+08:00

man. why do i always get my ass served to me by little kids. last time was that ben guy and now its felix wee. well i guess i should be proud that i lost to felix wee who is better than ben. i lost to ben 6-0 6-0. lol. i lost to felix wee 6-1 6-2. good improvement i guess. changed my game play to a more daring game. but yeah. it was a fun match.

my ankle is screwy. its REALLY screwed. lol. even if i won yesterday. i would not be able to play today. like cant even walk straight. heh. must limp. ah well. going to the chinese sinseh soon. yup. going to record down the sounds of me laughing. thats going to be a blast. lol.

no theories as of late. will come back with something more intellectual.

...my scripts end...
~~horrible ankle~~

2006-07-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

i feel entirely wasted. and my blogger is screwy again. sighs.

i think id better wear a condomn tomorrow incase i get raped too badly. my anus would probably hurt. ah well. anti-pregnancy pills and condomn and whatever contraceptive there is. im going to try to castrate my assailant.

...my scripts end...
~~dieee~~

2006-07-23T11:13:00.000+08:00

ive been looking at my archives and i found something really awfully hilarious: the way i typed last time.

i thought it was cute i guess. or maybe i was just childish. but now when i look at it. i feel just irate that the way i typed was so immature. bah i guess it comes with age. intellectual level of blog entries are increasing now. seems like a good thing. anyways i want to watch stay alive! anyone want to watch? give me a ring or something.

something is really going on in our class. something majorly screwy. oh well. the politics of life.

ah crud. i slept on my arm. now ive got pins and needles in it. cant feel my right arm. lol. 2pm soon. got to get ready. dont feel like playing though. heh.

...my scripts end...
~~politically incorrect~~

2006-07-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

although i couldnt think straight on what to write about mind over body yesterday. today i totally knew what i was doing for mind over body.

OH SQUISH YOURSELF CHARLYN. GO BOMB A DINOSAUR OR SOMETHING.

man. after stopping tennis for 4 months. BOOM. 2h30min match. wow. i think i lost like 5000000 pounds. but no. only 1kg. man. lol. ah well. first set really totalised me. i couldnt be bothered any more. i just wanted to get over the match nearing the end of the first set. be it a loss or a win. but then the guy was unlucky. made a windy so yeah won the first set. but then was so screwed. it was a frigging 1h set. lol. after that. second set. i didnt give a shit anymore. didnt run for anything. the guy drop shot me. i was like. OH. stay at the baseline and stone. lol. so was down like 5-2. then i slapped myself. WHAT THE F**K ARE YOU DOING RAYSHIO. YOU CAME HERE TO PROVE THAT YOU CAN PLAY A GOOD MATCH. SCREW THE WIN OR LOSS. PLAY. PLAY GOOD. OR DIE TRYING. fought back. lol. still lost. then third set. mind on and off. but then was trying hard. in the end the last two games. helluva fight. pushed myself like siao. won through a blast serve. yeah. oh well.

so the score goes.

1st set
7-6 tie break (8-6)

2nd set
3-6

3rd set
7-5

not bad i suppose. considering after coming out of tennis seclusion.
so here are the estimated match statistics.

WINNERS : 3 or 4
WINNERED AGAINST: 10-15
FIRST SERVE: 75-80%
SECOND SERVE: 80-90%
DOUBLE FAULTS: 3 or 4
WATER DRUNK: 2L
COMEON + FISTS: 3 or 4 (NEW RECORD)
SWEARING: 7?

ah well. mind over body really. i really feel sorry for my opponent. he fought really well. and he didnt play like those asses in singapore who pop and tap and lob. so heres kudos to you man.

now thats done. on to more concerning issues. i THINK THAT ALL 158 SHOULDNT BE AIRCONDITIONED. WINDOWS MUST BE OPENED. why? i get treated to 5min of wonderful durian smell. WOOHOO. damn nice. XD its like... perfume man. AHHH so nice. YES. ALL 158 SHOULD BE OPEN WINDOWED.

okay im damn hungry. only had a cheeseburger while shopping for a new bag. which i found. i see GUAVA.

...my scripts end...
~~guava is good~~

2006-07-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

mind over body.
mind over body.
mind over body.
mind over body.

wonderful words aint it? i believe in them though. yeah well. i believe in pushing your limits by just thinking ONE MORE STEP. ONE MORE TIME. i mean. yeah. i dont know how to put it. its called determination. i cant think straight now.

bah all those songs are just making me nostalgic. i hate it. argh. maybe i should just do what charlyn asks me to. but then. MIND OVER TESTOSTERONE. yes. i made an aim and a goal for this year. and im going to acheive it no matter what.

well then. tomorrow is intermediate! hooha. i love the feeling of not training and going to a tournament.

wonderful! school is going to get a half day soon. i hope its not on a tues or thurs. or else itd be real shit ass. sighs. I CANT THINK STRAIGHT. URGH.

funny thing. is taht after sometime, i became damn bitchy. lol. im a whore. sighs. oh yes gimlim. MY EFFORTS GONE TO WASTE!

...my scripts end...
~~pissified~~

2006-07-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

smiles.

its the cheer in someones life. a cheer that you give to others and others give unto you. have you ever tried to make others smile or laugh as much as someone else does? have you ever tried being the joker who brings laughter and smiles to everyone? i suppose most of us have. why? because smiles and laughter is the one joy that we obtain from life. the joy of knowing that we cheered someone up or the joy of being noticed or even the joy of someone just being there listening to you is priceless.

i dont know about all of you. itd be nice now and then having strangers smile at you. not in that creepy way. but those kind of friendly hello kind of way. we live in singapore where i feel that we are quite cold towards each others. not to sound racially discriminant but especially the chinese. we tend to care for ourselves, family and depends on which friends. but then when it comes to strangers we dont give a shit. but have you seen the ways malays stick together? how they are bonded strong as thought it were glue? i mean im kind of missing that in my life. where people just accept each other and are friendly. we are too wary against each other. which is quite screwed up.

attention.

all of us want to be noticed by a certain someone or people. i dont know, its probably innate. that we want attention. if we dont get it, we'd probably grow insane from the loneliness. haha. take "Castaway" for example, he didnt have any companions and was so lonely that he resorted to talking to a volleyball. no? i like attention. its just that i portray it suttly. maybe. maybe not. but everyone wants attention just different degrees of it. i mean if a teacher comes into class, (yes he/she is there to teach) but if you dont give them attention. after a while they would feel like they've lost their place and feel hurt would they not? i mean if you were in their shoes wont you feel that way too? i would. i'd probably go off and stone by myself somewhere else.

anyways. today was CIP day. little kiddies, old folks, horny young teens. what could have been better? haha nahhh. just maybe it was a little paedophile haven. lol. bah it was so slack. joel, colin and i resorted to doing gay stuff. REALLY gay stuff. like making a video to pop princess which was highly amusing. yeah. after that, went out to have lunch, string my racket, talked. yeah thats about all. i know... my life is boring. so go dig a hole and die if you think so. later y'all. i shall go find something to do.

...my scripts end...
~~life as it is
is boring without
me~~

2006-07-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

ohkay. i am officially pissed with the WEP thing. why is there a fricking voice in there.

its just freaky.

screw it. screw WEP. SCREWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

...my scripts end...
~~oh my it finally closed~~

2006-07-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

ethics has gotten me thinking about judgement again. heh.

and i was thinking about something then i forgot. sighs. let me recollect...

ah hah. i remember.

REASONS. everyone of us have had reasons to tell be it excuses or whatever. but however, we have never considered other people's reasons when they do something wrong or an atrocity. have you not thought of this before? okay take for example, a guy is trying desperately to attain attention from others. yet you shun him away because he is annoying. have you ever considered why he is trying so hard to attain attention from others? maybe it is because he has low self esteem and he is trying to fit in and so you cant blame him for that. maybe he is just an attention seeker and you cant blame him for that either. but the point remains, have you ever considered why he does what he is doing before ostracising or criticising him?

i can safely say that i have. and i am not proud of it. many of times man criticise others without truly understanding why they do so. we pass judgement ever so quick like lightning strikes earth. we see someone do something and we straight away pass judgement. then i should take reference from my previous entry about whether it is right to judge others. we always do things before getting to the bottom of the issue. we act before with probably 10% of the real story. i mean are we "morally" right to judge others? that aside, are we right to judge others without realising the true story?

reasons and excuses exist to pardon us from our own problems. we look to others and ask them to realise the truth before passing judgement on us. do we not? i mean we would want others to base their judgement on a full story rather than the halfbaked truth. wont we? then why dont we do the same? stop assuming the truth and find the REAL story and the objective story before passing a view.

now comes to the funny part. whatever we do, we have excuses to say. like why didnt you do your homework? OH I HAD BLAH BLAH BLAH... i have always realised this. it is quite amusing honestly. in my opinion, i feel that whatever we have done wrong, we should just accept our mistakes and accept our judgement. yes we may want others to find out the truth. but let THEM find it out themselves. just accept your fate as it is. that is what i feel. and if this coincides with the previous paragraph, if others are WILLING to find out the truth before passing the judgement, it would be fairer. because everytime we reason with others, it seems like we are cooking up excuses just to pardon ourselves. it seems so selfish. i dont know... it is just my view. *shrugs*

..my scripts end...
~~reasons reasons~~

2006-07-16T12:58:00.000+08:00

aloha. i am back from noodles place. im feeling so wasted XD ah well...

slept at 5am. lol. playing xbox, doing functions, doing physics, playing wc3 lol. felt so wasted. gee. i had a feeling that the partaye would end at like 11 or 12. but then. for some reason or another, when hsuante and i went up to get weian's stuff and came back down. suddenly the mood just plunged. lol weird. ah well.

ninja gaiden black man. i still love xbox. it keeps many tamed. haha. just go to a party and leave an xbox there. and mostly everyone would be glued to the tv set and playing. works wonders. XD

heres a new theory.

maturity. its just a question. is it immature to call others immature? or is it mature to call others mature? i have no idea. we keep labelling each others as mature/immature. but then what are we then actually? we set our maturity as benchmarks to grade others. isnt that unfair? or is that fair? but one thing is for sure, it is human nature. we use ourselves as benchmarks to grade others. similar to everything we do. when you say, HE SUCKS. meaning that he's worse than you. i guess...

feel free to leave some ideas here... really want to know how you guys feel about this. ah well...

...my scripts end...
~~maturity thoughts~~

2006-07-16T01:52:00.000+08:00

greetings to you all, from hsuantes house.

that is all i have to say. i am going to do maths now. buhbye.

2006-07-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

i dont think it is purposeful of learning certain subjects in school.

i mean. WHY IN THE FRICKING WORLD DO WE LEARN STATISTICS,TRIGO,FUNCTIONS or whatever other stuff when MOST OF US WONT BECOME ENGINEERS. okay stats can be understood. but i SO HATE THAT FRICKING TOPIC. AHHHHHHHHH. i feel like writing SUCK MY BALLS AND DIE on my paper when im doing stats. so many damn graphs. so many... AH JUST SUCK MY BALLS AND DIE.

this is highly amusing. the intermediate tournament is next saturday and they havent released the draw yet. i wonder if my name is in there. i have no idea if i sent in my form. lol. ah well. my ankle still hasnt healed completely. this is funny. heh.

went to catch pirates of the carribean: dead mans chest today. man it rocks. i figure that its going to be the next lord of the rings. the LONG awaited trilogy. matrix trilogy was a flop in my opinion. ah well.

i cant believe my wed, thursand fridays ALL END with a double science period. bah. what happened to slack? i still feel like screaming at statistics. it always kills my eyes. i swear if my eyesight deproves, its because of stats. it kills EYES. man we should make this complaint.

oh yes. i love my phone. i hate statistics. i love tennis. i love sleeping. i hate statistics... im sorry did i say that before? let me say it again. STATISTICS SUCK. now i must write my gavel speech. argh.

...my scripts end...
~~stats can go and
suck my balls and die~~

2006-07-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

disclaimer. i do not sit and think purposefully. these thoughts just come into my mind while im on the train or when situations happen to me. i get pissed or whatever. then i think about how screwed life is. and how screwed humans are.

what happens when life comes crashing down on you. what happens when you feel like there is no tomorrow. when you feel that you are dead. when you feel there is nothing to live for. what happens, when you lose all hope.

hope. what does that word mean? it is the core foundation of our mentality. our psychology relies on this to live. it feeds off the positive outlook of hope for us to maintain our daily routines. hope gives us our passion. hope gives us our motivation. hope gives us our optimistic outlook on life. hope...

hope gives us something to look forward to. a small chance that might happen such as a victory. without it, we are nothing. we lose our purpose in life.

i do not know why i am writing this. its just coming out from my finger tips. it is all impromptu. heh. i had no intention on writing this in the beginning. i just asked questions and poof the answer came out. now im tired i have no idea why. maybe its because i slept for 5hours. tired. BUT HEY. I WON A MILO. yay.

...my scripts end...
~~schooooool~~

2006-07-09T13:14:00.000+08:00

judgement.

have anyone of us judged someone in our entire lifetime? have we ever looked at someone and said that he or she is weird? have we ever said that someone else was cool and another an asshole? have we ever judged someone else as to what their character was or how they looked?

who are we to judge others? who are we to label others. when we say taht someone is weird. how do we know what is weird and not. we use ourselves as benchmarks as to "normality". but what if in fact we ourselves are weird to begin with. and that dude you think is weird. is just probably weirder. or maybe. he is normal. and that his lifestyle is just a matter of normal. it is weird because you are not accustommed to his "normal" lifestyle. is it not true?

i cannot stand the way us humans label others. i do it to. and when i reflect, it is not a very nice things to do. dont you people think so to?

yes again, like stereotyping, it might be just human nature to protect ourselves. but then. in the process of protecting ourselves, should we harm others? but then that is what all of us humans do dont we? we kill others so that we dont get killed. we do harm unto others just to prevent harm from doing unto us. i mean that is not wrong i guess. but it probably seems selfish until it happens to you. i mean isnt it sorta selfish? dont you like feel that we care for ourselves more than others at any point of time of the day? maybe some do not. but i certainly feel this way... then the question remains. how do we cure this?

i dont have the cure nor the solution to this problem. but hey. we all have to try. try to be less selfish and more giving. give to society as an when you can. and i dont mean by donating money. but by helping those in need and sparing a thought to others when it is needed most.

judgement day would be the day that we would be all judged upon. and when that happens. let us not be judged in a manner that we judged others by. let us be judged in a good way. in a way that we helped and judged others by.

...my scripts end...
~~judgement day~~

2006-07-05T19:13:00.000+08:00

heres a thought.

we classify our age as the modern age. the previous ages as the rennaisance, classical age etc. so what happens when we go to like lets say the year 2500 and we still call ourselves modern. what age do we call ourselves? i mean we find that we are MODERN now. like now is THE TIME. but what happens in the future when we find that the year 2000 was a outdated year and the year 2500 is THE TIME as well. lol. weird.

back to the issue on singaporean structured education system.

i think i blogged about this some time ago. but im back to complain on it.

have you ever seen how people react to questions? its way way hilarious. okay someone is asked what would you like to eat. well that someone is a kid. and the dad went off to the toilet. so the kid says. I TOLD MY DAD WHAT I WANT TO EAT ALREADY. im like WTF?! why cant you just tell the person what you want to eat right? SAME THING. but NOOOOO. I TOLD MY DAD WHAT I WANT TO EAT. and the kid just sits there and goes back to playing his phone or whatever. structured mindset? you tell me.

so yeah. our mindset is totally rigid due to our education system. you ask an average student to tell you what he sees in a picture. what do you get? the general surface idea of it. if you ask someone from usa or something. they will give some weird idea. but still. its out of the box. i dont know. our rigid way of thinking is totally clogging up our ideas. so here is a quote for you people.

"DO NOT LET SCHOOL GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR EDUCATION"

yes. never let school obstruct your education. take it from me. you can never learn any life skills nor creativity whilst you are stuck in a singaporean education system. never. note. learn not innate ability.

aite that is all for my ranting today. im starting to miss tennis. i wanna get back to it.

...my scripts end...
~~dinner time~~

2006-07-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

ROAR. something is wrong with my blogger. ALL MY HISTORY IS GONE. ALL MY ARCHIVES. WTF. #*($^!&$^!&*#!@*%#^*!@%$.

bah. anyways im here to say something. lazy to blog about it.

IP1s ARE DAMN NOISY.

...my scripts end...
~~lazy~~

2006-06-30T21:16:00.000+08:00

i bring greetings back from leeches and a pot filled with over 5 people's puke.

OBM LUMUT WAS A BLAST.

firstly. let me summarised the things that i lost.

- my sergio tacchini pants
- my obm lumut collar pin (left it in the bus dropped out of my pants)
- my phone spare batt

that ought to be all that i lost unintentionally. mom thinks that i lost the pants cause someone stole it. well she thinks that someone stole it. oh well. here is what i think. monkeys took them. heh.

okay let us go through the highlights day by day.

DAY 1:

reached GOLDEN MILE COMPLEX TANAT SRI MAJU TRAVELS. i still cant get over the name. it always tickles me somehow. bah 8 hour bus ride began. nothing much really. reached there. played cards, had dinner. AND WE HAD DORMITORIES TO STAY IN. PROPER SHOWERS. PROPER BEDS. PROPER ROOMS. AND ELECTRICITY. and i didnt bring my charger. damnit. lol. oh well. night time rocked socks. all the guys crashed weiliang/colin/joel's room to play cards and mess around till like 12+am. lol. made so much noise because we urm. PLAYED INDIAN POKER. and sorta spoilt something along with it. hell of alot of fun. one heck of a night.

DAY 2:

woke up. had assembly and had some lame ass dance thingy. weird stuff. but fun nonetheless. breakfast. ice breaker games. stuff like that. then we were briefed on how to pitch bashas and how to kayak in the afternoon. nothing really special. oh yeah paired up with jessica for kayaking. yuppies. had dinner. got briefed again at night for the next day's expedition. then went to play cards again. lol. same thing. but this time. THERE WERE BEES. HAHAHA. man we all became fags. weiliang was so brave. and he took the pillow and swatted them away. haha wicked funny stuff.

DAY 3:

expedition! set out in the morning. had to load the stuff onto the mother boat. no idea why they call it mother. why cant they call it father. lol. anyways. yeah. so i volunteered jess and i to be the last man sweeper. supposedly its the hardest job. but hey. i rock. well we rock. haha. 9 hours of HARDCORE kayaking in the open sea. 37+km. with heavy winds always pushing us off course. choppy waters. fairly huge waves. yup. tough challenge. with crazy sun beating down on us. i got burnt on my inner thighs (because of this i couldnt walk) and my arms and face. woohoo. im black now. lol. but charlyn is still blacker. lol. hmm it was an extremely tough journey. arms really died. the island didnt seem to get bigger with every stroke i made. but yet. i persevered. sorry WE persevered. and in the end. after almost 9 hours of kayaking. we reached the shore. from the last man. to the third pair out of the 5 pairs who made it on their own. 4 pairs backed out. really tough feat. but hey. the reward was great. white sandy beach. almost clear water. damn. i love it. SUCKS TO BE YOU GUYS IN UBIN. WHERE DO YOU GET THIS. HAHAHA. we settled down and pitched tents. yup. and slept.

DAY 4:

i couldnt walk. stupid burns in my inner thigh. oman. walking HURTS. got up. took our own sweet time. and then had breakfast. and lo and behold. a storm was brewing in the not too far distant. and in the end. we had to sit in the shelter and stone to wait for the storm to pass before we set off. so we sit there. rain on my back. freezing because i dont have any jacket. and WE HAD AN IDEA. EUREKA. *takes out weiliang's solid fuel*. WARMTH. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. so nice. haha. so we stoned in the shelter for like 3 hours. until the instructors decided that it was taking too long. SO. they shipped us back to camp. 2 hours of crazy choppy waters. one pot for puking purposes. 22 sick people. what do you get? A REALLY SICK POT FILLED WITH PUKE. of not one. BUT MANY! i asked for the pot just in case. but lo and behold. once i got the pot. it was so sick that i immediately puked. lol. so we reached back to headquarters. still quite shaken. unloaded stuff. packed stuff. yeap got washed and had our own dinner. then we had our briefing. i was so darn shacked. slept at like 11. konked out.

DAY 5:

hmm we had our own breakfast with our leftover rations. then I HAD A SHIT. yeah. planned it all. shit on day 5. then come back and shit. lol. so we had our meeting. hmm forgot what happened... lol. oh crud. i really forgot what happened on day 5. anyways. we did our stuff. then at night we prepared for our mount bubu trekking expedition. grabbed our supplies and equipment. AND FINALLY GOOD DOME TENTS. oh yes. i finally remembered what we did. morning we did RAFTING! i totally felt like it was so similar to kluang. haha. hmm... my group was, shihui, jessica, liu xuan, gim, joel, yingting, mel tee, gha, daniel oh crud. who else. i forgot!!! sorry whoever i forgot. please tell me and i shall update. yup. our raft. i thought it wouldnt make it at first. BUT WHO WOULD HAVE GUESSED. we made it through. and weiliang's raft collapsed. although its design was good. the tying was bad. oh well. i rock my tying and my group's tying skills. well we rock i mean. haha. so it was like HEART AND SOUL. HEART AND SOUL. HEART AND SOUL. and Ujang(our instructor) was saying. HEART AND DIE. HEART AND DIE. HEART AND DIE. haha really funny. but it was real fun as well. whooopee. so after that we had lunch and then in the afternoon we went for trekking conditioning for 3 hours. carrying a backpack with 2 galleon bottles. heavy man. and i was like lack of sleep. i felt so faint lol. anyways it felt like kluang again. lol. although the peak was like 300m only. but hey. it was still fun. so we got back and yeah the night part is ontop.

DAY 6:

START OF MOUNT BUBU TREKKING EXPEDITION. carried all our bags down. blah blah. had breakfast and then we went to take the bus ride for 2 hours to the base of the mountain ridge. hmm on the way everyone was sleeping lol. i woke up half way when the bus slowed down only to see a TOTALLY AWESOME THING. a car was OVERTURNED in an accident. like WHOA. and then i went back to sleep. lol. hmm reached the base of the ridge and then we had our packed lunch. cats were like moving around. haha and joel is afraid of cats. HAHAHA. he was like calling the cats BROTHER! DONT LIKE THIS! GET DOWN BROTHER! hahaha and he was trying to hypnotise the cats. damn funny. in the end i carried the cat down. lol. then we SET OFF! the first part was fairly heavy going as i was just getting used to the bag weight. but everyone had energy. gideon was like we shall have a whole hour of leech orientation. lol. then after about 45min to 1hour of trekking, the first scream was heard. everyone crowds over. and with my keen eyesight (well not keen but hey i dont wear specs nor lenses) i spotted these brown earthworm looking creatures waving up and down in front of my feet and then it began to crawl towards me. we were like. ITS A LEECH. OOOOOOOOO. my curiousity got the better of me and i was not so worried about these "friendly" looking creatures. however. after another 30min of trekking. BOY WAS I WRONG OR WHAT. everyone was bleeding. leeches began to stick onto my shoe, trying to crawl through my LEECHPROOF shoes. (columbia rocks) and they stuck onto my track pants as well. totally disgusting. we were like turning to each other. "eh help me step the leech off". well that was the back of the queue. the front was. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK! (shrieking sound) and we come to a halt as gideon goes ahead to remove it. lol.

hmm...so thats about all for the first day of our camping expedition. wasnt that tough. just really long. and tons of leeches (i had none in my shoe nor did i have a bite on the first day). reached the campsite at around 7pm. set up camp and had a quick dinner. then took some shutter eye.

DAY 7:

woke up at 7am. supposed to leave at 8. but instead we left at 9. lol. it was to climb up to the summit. the steep was anything but gentle. it was at least 60 degrees. so climb climb climb. gideon estimated that we would take 1h to reach the rest point. in the end we took 1h30min. around that. so he said that for every 1h that we are supposed to take, we take 30min more. the estimated time to reach the top from the rest point is 2hours. so you people will take 3hours. im like oh crud. BUT WHO GUESSED. we reached it in 1h. lol. we rock man. like totally. 1657m of mountain height. no kick. just that the view wasnt that nice up there. kinda dissapointed. but hey. my highest peak. then went down. had dinner blah blah. slept.

DAY 8:

got up at 5am. couldnt sleep. i had like broken sleep every 1h. so i slept at 10pm the previous night. woke up at 11pm, 12am and so on. kinda irritated. so we got everything prepared blah blah. packed up. left camp at 8:30am. began our journey through leech terrain again. the trek to the summit had none. this time there was gonna be plenty. and i slightly sprained my ankle on the way up. and kinda felt taht my pelvis joint was dislocated due to some bad manoevuer that i made on the way up as well. it hurt. but who gave a shit. i still went. and we went at such speed i could not believe how fast we were. lol. but then linh fell and sprained her ankle at the river rest point. and a leech somehow got onto my bagpack. and it crawled to my stomach and started to move. but it didnt bite yet so it was fine. peeled it off. eew. and had one TINY one on my big toe. which died when i was walking lol. so yeah. despite linh's injury we still moved quite fast. which was highly impressive. *applauds linh* any oh how. the last 4 people. me gim biqing and charlyn began the LEECH CATCHING COMMUNITY. we caught OVER 20 LEECHES! the funness. haha so fun at the back. but then gideon threw away our leeches ))= lol. couldnt bring it back. we reached base 1h30min ahead of time. which was AWESOME. spent time resting and slacking. haha i wore the same clothing for trekking throughout. 3days 2 nights. SUCK ON THAT. JOSEPHIAN MANLINESS. hahaahha. woohooo. my man smell was aged to perfection. got onto the bus and another 2 hours back. the bus ride was one of a kind. lol. i felt that i was on a roller coaster ride. lol. way way cool. damn bumpy. 2hours of pure bumping. lol. reached back. had dinner. then crashed. oh yes. SHOWER FINALLY.

DAY 9:

ONE MORE DAY. woohooo. we spent the day doing stock taking and reflection. im sorry. i meant REFRACTION. lol. nothing special really. cept the DINNER. man was that AWESOME OR WHAT. the dinner rocked. im lazy to blog about it. but it rocked like siao. and we all shook hands with the 2nd man of the navy command in lumut. yeahhhh. we roxxors. lol. then at night. i tried sleeping at 11pm. gim went to stone with charlyn and biqing. so i slept alone. then somehow i couldnt sleep. so at 1am. i got pissed and went to join them to stone. and boy was i stoned. lol. played some cards. got abit high. got bad constipation. lol. then went back to sleep at 3 something with gim.

DAY 10:

our return journey to singapore. over 8 hours. my stomach just died. but yeah. we reached singapore. and here i am! well here i was. supposed to enter this yesterday. but got lazy at day 5. lol. then i watched some movies and did my speech.

TODAY:

i went to gavel in the morning. man i couldnt wake up. well i didnt want to wake up. lol. but i needed to give my speech oh well. in the afternoon went to have seoul garden with biqing charlyn and gim. MAN. 2hours 30min of EATING. now im so stuffed i cant eat my mom's damn nice prawn mee. and PEEEEEW. what the hell. a rubbish truck just drove by. BLEAGHS. oh yes my room got made over. now it is a light bright yellow colour ((= haha. and stuff got moved around. thanks mom. well off i go to eat some mee to make my maid's and mom's effort not to vain. later y'all.

...my scripts end...
~~enrichment week~~

2006-06-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

ROAR.

it is the 20th of june (2 days before my smses get rest) and i am leaving tomorrow. so this should be the last blog entry i am writing for the next 10days. sighs. thinking about it isnt really that pleasant you know?

anyways my mom said that once i leave, shes going to repaint my room. and i really do think that its requiring paint attention. my walls are all shittified. i suppose it is going to be some light creamy yellow colour. wheee. today i woke up. skipped breakfast. and cleaned out my room. and literally cleaned out my room. i packed my files and stuff. and shifted all my tables and drawers to the study room. so now where im typing, its kind of loaded with clothes. and books and my stuff. and my room... i think its gonna be weird sleeping in it tonight. haha its so empty. just 1 bed and a bedside table and my empty closet. whee. oh well.

hmm so i was thinking. if in the jungle or wherever. i see this swarm of insects. WHEE. *takes out deodourant or whatever and lighter*. BOOM. HAHAHAHA! DIE YOU MAGGOTS. fireworks man. total annhilation. thats the way it is done.

so my bag is kinda full now. oh wells.

im currently deciding between discman and ipod. 8hour journeys need some companions. ipod has limited life span. but unlimited (well 1000 songs). but. although discman has short lifespan. i can bring batteries. hmm i think i pick discman. bring 1 or 2 discs. yup. though i have no idea which ones. superfresh 2 and you're beautiful. hmm. yeah.

anyways i bid farewell to all of you people and faggots who are going for the local programme.

...my scripts end...
~~hope i dont die~~

2006-06-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

my tears flow softly down,
i stare at your body bound.
as your soul enters them gates,
my love for you shall never fade.

so upon the moon i take this vow,
with all my might and all my grace.
i shall never forget your presence,
i shall never forget your face.

hmm something i just wrote. inspired by kuftc ending poem. lol couldnt remember it so i wrote something of my own.

so i have decided to register for the intermediate tournament. wonder how it'll be not training and going for a tournament. well the only thing im training is my stamina. started running yesterday. yes it shall be my routine. oh crud. i forgot about my forearm ones. sighs. must remember. so run for 30min everyday which amounts up to approximately 5km. do 50 crunches with 3sec hold. and then 3 sets of forearm muscle training. should be alright. so in the midst of all this running. hsuante tells me that theres the REAL run. so what the heck. lets join for the sake of it. dad's joining as well. i think he can emerge top 20. 1000 bucks prize money. maybe he can win. i mean if HE CAN. DOOOD. all that cash. haha.

homework update:

i have officially finished chinese. well havent done the comprehension thing. but i dont intend to. math is almost done. just questions i have no idea how to do now. going to ask uncle raymond tomorrow. if im going that is. yes everyone. SWEAR AT ME.

like i said before. im special. be it highclass or just downright retarded.

well after today ive got 2 days of holiday left. so tues better go out and enjoy life abit before going into total solitude. well okay NOT solitude but yeah jungle life. 10days of horror. i was actually thinking that ob lumut would be quite fun. now im starting to dread it. funny thing. cause many others are also feeling this way as well. hmm oh well.

ah well dinner time. time to restock that body carbo lost.

...my scripts end...
~~training~~

2006-06-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

HEY. MY BLOGGER IS BACK TO NORMAL. AWESOME. wicked stuff.

i just realised that charmed is over. after all those seasons... sighs. okay im full just had dinner. way way way full. ate alot cause at 6pm went for a 30min run... about 5 km i should think. now my legs are gone. to think im going to do this everyday. wow... imagine if i REALLY do this everyday, next year fitness will be impressive. self training helps i guess. but after stopping tennis for 2 to 3mths, im getting fat lol. oh well. guess all that alcohol has caught up with me. heh. beer belly.

what have i got to say today?

let me think...

ahh... the topic of the day: the question of life.

i think ive written this earlier on but hey theres always new stuff i think.

what do we live for? why are we alive? those are the questions that we should be asking ourselves everynow and then. why am i doing this? why am i typing this entry? why? because i wish to search the truth of my actions. i wish to search the truth of my life.

for everything that we do. a very important question should be asked. why? why do i insult others? maybe because you are jealous perhaps. think of every action you make. and question the reason of them. only then will one reach self-actualisation.

i intend to study criminology and psychology in the future. whether it'll happen or not is another story. firstly, i have to understand myself. why do i do what i do? psychology is a key factor in our society. everyone is complaining of stress and work and start breaking down into depression. relationships etc. everything has a reason or reasons to them. for instance. why do people keep getting back into relationships? why is there such a thing as the rebound? that is because love is a feeling that is like a drug. it is addictive. and once someone falls out of it and is unable to control his/her feelings, there is bound to be the wanting of having another relationship. now you question teenage relationships. why do you think we fall in and out of them so frequent? okay so you have a first love. then you break up. 1mth later. you start missing that feeling. and you get into another relationship. just jump into it. how do you expect to sustain a relationship this way? of course you will keep getting hurt and do it all over again. the whole process would just become a routine for one. i dont know about how you people feel but this is how i feel. how do i know? ive felt it. but i have yet to succumb to that wanting. teenagers just get into the relationship for the sake of it. it becomes short flings really. out of 10. probably only 2 or 3 sustain a decent relationship. and out of that 2 or 3. how many of them become really long term relationships? virtually zero. thus far i only know of jamie's parents and her bro. thats all.

hmm so probably thats the way things work and i cant change it. however, this shows the mindsets of teenagers around. im not insulting you people. im sure you people have your own reasons. but this is the way i think and a decent number of adults as well. until this mindset has grown out of a teenager, it is impossible for them to mature. maturity... what a rare sight in singapore. where quite a handful of teenagers are dependent on their parents and friends. then there are those who are not exposed due to reasons of their own concern. so it is hard to nurture a society of mature thinking. now. what is mature and what is not? who are we to judge this? well taking that if you feel that your maturity is labelled as mature, others might seem immature to you. but then if you actually sit down and think. how mature am i? and judge your actions/thoughts and compare that to those of adults or probably those whom you view as mature people, you would probably see that you arent that mature after all. they say that girls mature faster than guys. i am curious as to what aspect are they referring to. physically. or mentally? i dont know. you decide.

so here i am. a boy who is 16. asking not myself how mature i am. but asking all who are reading this how mature i am. that only makes it fair.

...my scripts end...
~~maturity~~

2006-06-16T19:55:00.000+08:00

thunder streaks across the sky,
im hungry... i want to eat pie.

honestly... i think there is something wrong with my blogger. i have no idea if im blogging in html or just blogging normally. anyway just got back from hsuantes. played for like 6+ hrs. lol. thats what hols are for right? haha and did 1 math question for him. not bad what. currently printing about 25 copies of the programme sheet for tomorrow. i have no idea how many i should print. and if i do this every week. my printer is going to DIE. bah next time i should go for photocopying. easier that way.

lesson learnt for the day. fifa 2006 gives great pleasure on the bed. or on the chair.

I MEAN SCORING GOALS.

stop thinking dirty all you sick perverts.

new thing to talk about for the day: sexism

what is sexism? to quote from dictionary.com "Discrimination based on gender, especially discrimination against women." now does that seem very familiar? okay. let us look at the definition of racism. "Discrimination or prejudice based on race. " now. dont they both look VERY similar? okay lets do a check. how many different races are there on earth compared to the differentiation of MAN and WOMAN. yeap. obviously theres a greater dispersion of races compared to different gender. now thinking that, sexism seems to be of greater trouble than racism. sexism is more rampant than racism. why is that so? okay look at most races/cultures. okay chinese culture: the women should be domesticated. is it indian culture? or is it malay culture.. well in that culture(either one) the man gets to keep mistresses whilst once the woman is found to have an affair, she is in some deep shit. yes certain races do not have such discrimination but hey. i said MOST.

okay i just came back from dinner. brain not in argument mode now.

hmm. okay. sexism. as you see from above, sexism is rampant in various cultures and races. now is that not worse than racism? okay i know that this is not a very strong argument im putting across here. but think for a moment. if most cultures have sexist traditions, wouldnt that mean that sexism is widespread across the whole world. well almost the whole world.

then if you view it from an average person's point of view, what is the stereotype of a guy compared to the girl. the girl is meant to be more feminine and the guy being much more masculine on the outside. meaning actions wise. i mean if the guy is gay or the girl is a butch i cant help it. but majority of the worlds population are more or less straight. so there you go. sexism in the view of everyone. if you do not believe. look at the guys around you. they try to act "macho" and do stuff that are MANLY. such as acting to be indifferent to a haunted house(trust me i know this, being a tourguide has let me see alot of this). i mean why cant a guy scream and not be called a wussy or a scaredy cat? we now call guys who go for facial and all that stuff metro. but if you ask me, many people's impression of them fall on the side of gay. need not be like GAY. but maybe feminine guy. similarly, why cant girls do things that guys do like swear. why is it tabboo for a girl to swear but not for a guy? this is one thing i dont get. and we are trying to establish countries that say EVERYONE IS EQUAL. equal my ass.

what is more. okay look at the education system. we should be going for meritocracy right? okay why does law and medicine faculty have more males than females? the reason being women have to take maternity leave and eventually most of them will give up their job to take care of their children. oh come on. if there is a guy and a girl with similar credentials, and the faculty is approximately 70 to 80% full. they will take the guy. will most likely. why? just because the guy presumably would not stop work to take care of the children. sexism? i dont know. you tell me.

whats more is the happening that having a male breadwinner seems more acceptable than a female breadwinner. well having a domesticated male would cause several heads to turn, some to chuckle some to laugh and some to be impressed. why is there an image that guys cannot be domesticated? sexism? you tell me.

lets just say that racism is no more. and everyone is happy by saying that we all live in harmony and everyone is equal. tell me when we are not judged by our gender. THEN i'll tell you that we are equal. we really have got to stop these images of the MALE and FEMALE. its really dumb.

anyways im off to do somemore irritating trigo. blasted hol hw. 4 more days of hol left.

...my scripts end...
~~whatever~~

2006-06-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

aite.

im officially pissed with trigo. whats with all the damn thing. yeah yeah practice makes perfect and math is practice. but still pissed nonetheless.

anyway a new theory im up with here. well its just my feelings about the way the world is:

stereotypes.

yeah thats what is an innate nature within everyone who walks this world. there is not one single person in this world who does not stereotype. okay maybe a special few. but on the whole, almost everyone stereotypes. this is kind of an action that really cheeses me off. one slight action from someone of that "race" or "class" or "religion" changes the way one sees of the whole population. and then, this becomes racism. just that no one realises it. but it is. what people define racism now these days is undesirable acts(insults/assaults) against other races. but, have you thought that these stereotyping is another form of racism? okay lets take for example here. we all think that the whites feel all high and mighty over us/ they feel superior over us just because of the way some doods in america/australia/britain act. isnt this racism already? you are labelling these people without knowing them.

yes i agree that these things like some angmohs feeling superior to us happen. but however, have you every considered whether getting to know them would change your idea? lets take for example, you have a certain opinion of some guy or girl in your class or school. probably like hes quiet/shy/desruptive. then when you get to know him/her, your outlook changes totally and you begin to like his/her character. this is what i call how to judge people. by their character when you understand them. not by when you have no idea what are the reasons or anything. everything that others do, we have got to fully understand the reasons before we starting shooting guns at them and saying they are doing it for the bad of mankind. Why does everyone start saying that Iran is developing nuclear energy for weapons? Does America also not create and develop these technologies? Why are they not criticised as well? There's racism there for you. but then yes i agree their past history and stuff, but then thats stereotyping there for you. Oh they did this this this in the past and they will sure do it in the future. Uniformity of nature. its logically flawed.

however, stereotyping is a way that we protect ourselves i presume. without all these stereotypes, how do we "distinguish" good friends from bad? it is just another one of own personal defensive filters. lets say, do not associate with gangsters because they are hoodlums and stuff. which is what many people say. but for all you know, some gangsters might be good. yes i know the key word is some, but do they not deserve a chance? picture this, you get thrown into prison for lets say fraud. then when you are released, no one wants to accept you for a job. this is highly rampant in Singapore's society. it is a perfect example of how we should not stereotype people or "classify" them before we know their true colours. yes if we give them a chance, they might exploit it and we would be in a fix. but what good is life when we do not help others? there are risks in everything we do. but the question is how large a risk we are willing to take....

...my scripts end...
~~risk?~~

2006-06-15T12:00:00.000+08:00

ohkay. my internet is screwy.

i cant tag anyboards cause somehow the boards dont load properly. roar. so i apologise for my inability to tag.

yesterday went out with gim to eat and mug and watch the omen.

yup thats abt all.

NO JARED. WE DID NOT LEAVE YOU OUT OF THE FUN. (although it was very much very high class)

yes.

that is all.

i have nothing better to say.

later...

2006-06-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

wassup y'all. something is really screwy with my blogger. i cant seem to access it right. ah well. im back from club med cherating. haha and from a 12hour road trip yesterday. was on the road from 10am till arnd 930pm. haha oh wells. blame those sua gu who wanted to take photos at immigration. ahaha im not sure but hey... they held the bus up for 1h. got really pissed there. if someone put a censor board on my mouth, itd have been *BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP* all the way. hahaha.

anyways heres a recap of my trip.

so on the 9th i left the house at 9.30am to copthorne to take NICE bus services. bahhhh wanted to blog the previous day but the stupid com took so long to open blogger. still happening tho. hmm... so my 5 hour bus journey began. hmm the seats are more comfortable than those in airplanes. more leg room and stuff. tho the food and service not that great. but seatings were good. hmm so we reached KL at arnd 4pm to be greeeted by dad. hmm then we went over to the hotel renaissance to stay for the night. so after settling in, we went to shop around for stuff then went for dinner with my dad's colleague and 2 clients. hmm HUGE dinner. 10 dishes. each dish fairly huge. haha and in the end they pushed all the food to me and my dad's colleague's son. hes like HUGE man. hes around 187cm and giant man. i felt small...

haha anyways we went back to the hotel and slept. next day dad picked us up and drove us to club med in a bmw 5.8. haha he borrowed it from the guy sharing his condo with him. haha anyways it was REALLY nice. but we got lost on the way. all of us were swearing at the inefficiency of the road system in malaysia. no signs and all. pot holes for roads. haha but hey, thats the only reason why we are ahead of them. hmm... had a few discussions about stuff in the car which was fairly fun. my dad's got this really huge thing against those vegetarians who visit those vegetarian restaurants which sell "charsiew" and stuff. haha quite amusing. oh wells. reached club med at around 3pm. we left at 10.30am! sheeesh. got lost too much. and the car's windscreen got frigging cracked by a stray pebble on the road. dad was quite pissed. anyways the time spent at club med was quite alright. didnt change much from my memory. which was exactly 10 years ago? or something like that. i was 3 or 4 when i went there i think. oh well. so went swimming right after we set our bags down. sighs no bird watching there cause there werent any birds. well it was a rare sight to find a few. yup.

dinner... buffet and free flow of alcohol. bbut it wasnt as great as the one in bintan. haha but i intend to work parttime in the future in one of the club meds as a petite club GO or as a tennis instructor. hmm no idea. haha. oh well. dinner... went to watch soccer at the bar. had a tiger and some adults were staring at me. oh yes. there was this HIGHLY irritating person who just came down and sat in front of me. cause the sofa was aligned perpendicular to the screen from a distance. then i was sitting at the side of the sofa so people could sit on the sofa and stay in front of me. so there were 4 people who came to watch. the first 3 asked if they could sit there. and they were polite in asking if i was blocking and stuff. BUT the last group was REALLY. sighs. first of all. a lady popped up of no where and walked in front of me, stayed there, and sat down. and started waving to her husband and friends. then before u know it. 2 guys come and plant themselves down on me. and they like sqaushed me without and caring. and the guy like blocked me. im like ****. and i went to the toilet,and came back to sit down. he was like taking up half of the space i was using. and he refused to move. damn ****er. rawr. truly pissed.

haha anyways next day, breakfast and went to do rockclimbing. that was fun. haha i almost reached the top till my strength failed me. haha about 50cm more. sighs. to think im going to do this in oblumut. haha. oh wells. after that walked around... blah blah. went to attempt bird watching. haha and archery was ALWAYS full. hmm in the afternoon we went to the beech and i sat in the sun for 45 min half naked. NO not bottom down. top up. stop thinking dirty all you cheekopehs. but yeah. and i didnt get burnt. haha after that went kayaking with dad for 40min. didnt get burnt either. and the water was so shallow. u could practically walk 100m out and the water would still be at ur waist. lol. oh well. went back to swim again. (forced by my sis) haha and bird watching again. green bird. lol. (no i dont mean blue bird). hmm went to shower, grab some minutes of shutter eye to cramp my pounding head. hmm then we went to take the tram to the beach for dinner. man the dinner was GOOOD. haha and my sister had a birthday cake there. anyways what was for dinner.

MEAT+SEAFOOD platter.

consisting of:
KING PRAWN
LAMB CHOP
BEEF STEAK
RIB EYE STEAK
ROCK LOBSTER
FLOWER CRAB
CLAM

and guess what. it was all.
FREE.

yesh. hahahaha. and alot more food. loved it. hmm my sister always has the fancier dinners and fancier holidays for her birthday. sighs. blame my birthday to be exam season. haha oh wells. my mom blames me for coming out 2 weeks earlier. she said that when i was only 5mths old, i was kicking to get out. lol. impatient kid.

hmm so next day woke up, 10am left the village and took our 12 hr long journey back to our garden city.

yup thats about all.

trigo is killing me. rawr. ive got 2 half done topics. and 1 undone.
finished chinese book. now starting on book report. i hate these things.

hmm missing dad now... like he works so hard there, and we are all here slacking... sighs...

...my scripts end...
~~holiday?~~

2006-06-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

i felt like blogging yesterday and stupid int was lagging its head off. nvm.

i am back to bitch about school gates. well school security.

i mean having motion detectors to prevent stealing and stuff is fine i guess. but whats with all the high fences with fake barb wire... bullshit. comeon. you say that it is for our OWN safety. yes. to prevent outsiders from killing us or whatever. but do you think, if that person REALLY wanted to kill us, he cld EASILY cut the fence? do you SERIOUSLY think that a small gate surrounded by fence would stop someone from doing such a thing? geez. like osama. you've got all these metal detectors and stuff at the airport. along with all ur anti-ballistic missle shield stuff. YET. the buildings still got bombed. if someone REALLY wanted to kill us, we would have been dead already. yes its just a precautionary measure. but then again... who are you really trying to protect? or what is the WHOLE purpose of the gates. there are two purposes of fences or gates, one: to keep people out. two: to keep stuff in. so what is it? has school evolved into a zoo?

we might as well pass off as caged beasts. to quote xmen3 "you know, sometimes when you cage the beast, the beast gets angry." yeah yeah what can we do as students. still, there is a breech in human rights. where is OUR FREEDOM?! i mean. school should be something that we choose to do. its our own life. its our own future. school should be open as to whether we want to go or not. not something that we are forced to go. then it should work both ways. teachers should teach for the sake of educating their students not for the pay. yes the pay is a bonus. they should come to school willing to sacrifice their time for the students and the students willing to sacrifice their time to listen to their teachers. that is the way school should be. is it not?

just open the damned gates.

its just a gate. just do whatever was suggested. GO MAKE A SECURITY GUARD CCA. whatever man. JUST LEAVE THE GATES OPEN. lessons should be for us to decide what we want. not forced upon us. and yes everyone says that education is the only resource we have in singapore as we have zero natural resources. oh comeon. out of how many people in which u force to study, have become scholars?

another thing. i have come up with a theory why singaporeans are short. well most of us. its also because of cursed schools. from young. primary schools, we have to lug heavy bags to school. WHICH. reduces our growth rate. so... therefore, (hypothetically) those people who are currently short, are those who mug alot. and those who are tall... well couldnt care less.

...my scripts end...
~~open the gates~~

2006-06-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

my legs are so shacked. playing tennis for 2 over straight hours is not the way to start off your 2mth tennis abstinance. heh. so its the 3setter match that noodle and i played. well uncompleted. haha. 6-1 4-6 1-0. hmm lets go for a 5 setter. haha. that would TOTALLY kill me. 4hours long match. XD haha.

hmm so im thinking whether i should take part in the intermediate tournament after today's performance. interesting really... wonder how i would make it. my first intermediate tournament i had a good starting match. cause that guy wasnt really good. so oh wells.

then after that went to watch THE NUN with xd and gim. man. WHAT A WASTE OF MONEY. xd now you better pay me back 9.50. sheesh. what a waste of money. another movie to add to my list of stupid horror movies.

anyways since the movie was at like 730pm. so we went to hangout at ezone. not playing anything. until i finally convinced xd to play para para. and damn. it was. embarrassing. lol. EVERYONE. well MOSTLY EVERYONE came to watch him. WTF. just moving his arms?! haha ask me for the video. its so XD haha. not xd but the smiley XD. and his signature cock thrusts. sighs. my turn next time MUAHAHA. i shall do butt thrusts. woohoo.

okay here is my list of horror movies if u want to watch something during the holidays. (stares at maths hw)

GOOD MOVIES

Sixth Sense
The Exorcism Of Emily Rose
Dark Water(can do lah)
The Maid
Saw
Saw 2
Thirteen Ghosts

SUCKASS MOVIES

THE NUN
THE DARK
HOUSE OF THE DEAD
THE FOG

well thats all i can think of uptill now. hmm maybe i shall update later.

...my scripts end...

~~lameness~~

2006-06-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

the petals grow softer each day,
the rose slowly begins to decay.
grasses all die off and wilt,
the balance of nature tilt.

no trees nor flowers surround,
no life or love is around.
earth has finally met is maker,
oblivion is sooner or later.

the maker's name is one we know,
humans it is called so.
we are the only cure,
but we arent all that pure.

cant we all stop killing,
save the earth from teething.
cant we spread the love,
for what we all are worth.

as each day passes by,
closer to darkness or fates lie...

this was something i was thinking about while walking back home. hmm been a long time since i wrote a poem. haha though i know it aint all that great but yeah its fine i guess. so long the passion is there. expository essays have gotten to me. i cant write a narrative anymore, the descriptions just went out of the window for me. sighs. need the inspiration back!

anyways here is a tip from a guy who didnt fall sick for about a year and a half. how to stay healthy for a decently long period of time. and trust me. being sick aint nice. healthy is the way to go. just gotta make sure that u dont get too much phlegm, i get that once in a while.

have lots of sleep. at least 8 hours a day. your immunity needs it.
drink plenty of water. keep yourself hydrated. try to drink warm water.
dont overdose yourself with junkfood or "heaty"/"cooling" stuff.
ALWAYS regulate what you do.
shower in cold water to build up your immunity. but if it is a cold day shower in hot water. well warm. dont scald yourself.
have a healthy diet. no need to follow directly to the food pyramid thing. just have good diet.
Don't catch a chill by sleeping in too cold air conditioning for you.

ALAS! that is my secret formula. should work wonders if you follow it well. i dont intend on falling sick anytime soon.

today went to ben's house for another one of our long awaited KOREA GANG OUTING. haha well jamie and john didnt go. but it was still fun nonetheless. although i still got tons of math to do. rawr. hmm we walked and ran in the rain. that i think was the most fun part. and i sang karaoke for the first time today! and what better way to do that than with these group of punk ass FREAKS. yes you all are freaks. oh yeah the funny thing was that after that, gim and i were going home. and we were walking and both of us wanted to piss REALLY badly. well i knew i did. dunno about him. so we walked all the way to thompson plaza to piss. dumb i know. lol. to think we wanted to piss in the bush but there was this indian guy behind us. nothing racist. just acknowledging his presence.

oh yes. one final word. TO THOSE 01 PEOPLE WHO HAVE STOPPED BY MY BLOG. MY SISTER DOES NOT LOOK LIKE WHOEVER YOU ARE SAYING. SHE TOTALLY DOES NOT. SHE DOES NOT LOOK LIKE HUIZHEN! DOES SHE?

...my scripts end...

~~fun day~~

2006-05-31T17:51:00.000+08:00

its such a lovely day.

lets all go plant dandelions in our backyards. wait for them to grow. such beauty.
..
..
..
..
THEN WE STOMP THEM FLAT.

then we repeat it all over again.

lol okay nevermind. this is what u get after a day of boredom into your brain. haha oh wells. hmm... the coolest news i have had thus far.

mom told me that next year, i get to swtich my room to the study room. new coat of paint. new stuff. AND i get computer + tv + xbox inside. hmm. maybe i'll try to throw in cd player. yeah. thatd be awesome. weehee. hmm man i need a new xbox game y'all.

help me decide. i shall get some polling or something.

- Marvel - Rise of the imperfects
- Kingdom under fire - Heroes
- Kingdom under fire the crusade
- Phantom crush

okay any other suggestions? man i REALLY need it ASAP or else im going to die at home from boredom. rawr. haha oh wells. OAC challenge this saturday. let us own all your asses in slacking. HAH.

...my scripts end...
~~xbox frenzy~~

2006-05-29T10:49:00.000+08:00

i am bored.

stupid math tutors and their 11 pages/topics hol homework. and if u tutors are reading this. IT IS TOO MUCH WORK. its a holiday for crying out loud. its time for us to PLAY and mess around. weehee.

today is monday. let see. i have nothing to do cept TLL and gavel meeting later tonight. past few days been just playing games and games and more games. roar.

i am bored.

...my scripts end...
~~boredom kills~~

2006-05-27T19:36:00.000+08:00

my feet hurt. from walking so long. haha stupid stingray. u can grow feelers out of ur head so i can cut them off. MUAHAHA.

gavel meeting today. one word for it. entertaining. haha im in the exco! haha sergeant-at-arms is the totally owning person who has a walkover. muahaha. shall run for pres in the next time. haha. sherlene has totally HORRIBLE table topics. rawr. haha i want to die of DESPERATION. haha that was my topic. that was funny. 1min of horror. haha. made everyone laugh alot ((= hahaha. wheee.

then went out for lunch with xinwei. modesto rocks. i almost had overdosage of lasagna. i almost PUKED. rawr. too much. damnit. oh yes. drinking PEPPERED water tastes no different. just that it smells weird. haha.

and going out with xinwei can kill my legs. AHHH. haha ohwells.

anyone can pass me the hol package yet? i want to start doing. haha. wheeeeee. lets go find jingz blog. haha i remember its in my bag somewhere. let me go grab it. later y'all

...my scripts end...
~~it is who we protect that
determines who we are~~

2006-05-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

here's the low down on the row down of the blow down.

IS2101 - 24/30
IS2102 - 23/40
IS2103 - 26.5/40
IS2104 - no idea
IH - 19/25, 16.5/25
LA - 10.5/19, no idea
CL - 41/70, overall B+
MA2104 - 34/40
MA2103 - 48/50, overall A+
MI - 78/100

hmm. hows that for change. should hopefully retain a 3.6 GPA. hopefully oh wells. haha. anyways today was crappy. got back the bad papers. but then i dont really give a shit already. wanna quit school. BUT. do i have a choice? no. blah.

after school went to catch X3 with jared weiliang ernest lauren celle and mer. haha mom helped us advance book. haha actually we cldve just bought it ourself. it was fairly empty. hmm lido 1. with like 1/6 or 1/7 full. lol. maybe abit more. haha the movie was good i guess. haha i especially loved the iceman-pyro battle. haha. it totally rocked. fire vs ice. thats the way man. haha. and then wolverine kicking the guy in the nuts and going "GROW THAT BACK". lol. really good.

anyways after the movie the girls wanted to eat sushi so we went to sakae sushi at borders and HEY! its SO crazy. so they said wait. and we looked into the mirror. and wow. people were playing scissors paper stone. and i was like. hmm. NOT A LONG WAIT. JUST LET THEM PLAY FINISH. lol. so instead we went to sun with moon. haha and we were talking about mutants then it became lousy advertisements then it became sports stuff. haha really cool evolution of speech topics. haha. we really ought to conduct this psychological study on speech topics. how we evolve things. lol. VERY interesting.

tomorrow is the last day of school! so it is time to ponder. how much time shall i devote to reading chinese story books?

...my scripts end...
~~rawr~~

2006-05-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

my oh mys.

2nd placing for class relay. with a sick boy: ME

haha not bad i guess. mom didnt allow me to run but what the heck. she wasnt there was she? haha in the end she was like YOU RAN. when she picked me up. i was YEAH. lol. then she kept quiet for like 10s. then i mean she cant do anything. so she asked me what we got. lol. second placing man. overtook 3 people. not bad. haha that was TOTALLY awesome. daixi came and i was like SHIIIIT so far back. then suddenly BOOM. i think became from 6th to 4th or 3rd. haha damn funny. and terence rocked our team. lol before the race i was telling huijun and weiliang to save face for me and not to own me. lol. really funny. then in the end they were making fun of me. haha cause i was like ran right through. but i didnt feel tired after it. shouldve ran faster i guess. haha. oh wells.

hmm after that went for wedding dinner. now that was okay i guess. cause i was so tired. :/ haha but still went anyways. CONGRATS SU LIN! haha but i wore that AX shirt for the first time. hmm quite warm but hey its alright i guess. i look awesome and hawt either ways. haha joking. and great. PAACT is flooding my email. damnit.

oh i got my bear claw chain today. its really nice ((= haha. so here is my present total up:

1 seiko divers watch
1 bear claw choker
1 godfather game
1 duck bouncing thing
1 choker
a few postcards and notes
many handshakes
a birthday song in the LT
2 birthday cakes
1 wallet

hmm what else? waiting for my duck toy that jing promised me. hmm i honestly feel that this year's birthday put some meaning into it. last year i cldnt give a shit. haha and well. maybe cause no one celebrated with me. haha last year loner mahs. no one cared about me ))= haha. oh wells.

bah thanks y'all! i'll remember it! ((= so now to get back more demoralising papers tmr. good luck to us all. godspeed.

...my scripts end...
~~godspeed~~

2006-05-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

okay lesson learnt for the day:

NEVER PRESS CTRL+A+LEFT ARROW. it destroys your entry.

i had this entry that was 174178451480 words long but then poof. -_-# rawr. haha this is my FOURTH entry attempt today. and last one.if this screws up. screw it. well heres a marks review of the day:

MA2103 48/50 (i rock)
IHwhatever 16.5/25 and 19/25 (decent and quite good i think)
IS2104 assignment 14/24 (screw it dont care anyway)

haha oh well. anyways. ENRICHMENT WEEK SIGNUP BROUGHT BACK THE KIASU FEVER WITHIN THE 05 GUYS! YEAH. haha you shouldve seen last year. most forms that we went for. we took the first few names HAHA KIASU SPIRIT. YEAH. haha. so we totally chiong everything haha. got everything i wanted ((= haha.

anyways after that i wanted to watch a movie. lol and wilbert abandoned me. so in the end i resorted to going back to class to ask ANYONE WANT TO WATCH A MOVIE? haha and surprisingly wan ting and sherrie obliged with a condition that i subsidise half of the ticket. rawr. sucks im going to get broke. haha went to cine and met wenlin and pauline. hmm and then i had a whopper and bought citron tea. oh yes. THANKS FOR THE CARDS Y'ALL ((= THEY WERE REAL SWEET! AND THE HONEY ROCKS TOO!

haha so in the end the POON MASTER came and watch over the hedge with us. lol. well the movie ROCKS. hammy is way cool. haha. anyways i realised sherrie is DAMN loud in a movie haha. so its kind of EMBARASSING but i forgive u sherrie. i know you are just a retard. lol joking. haha. anyways after the movie we went to walk around and look at stuff. haha the PULL ME thing rocks. haha sounds totally wrong anyway. saw so many wrong stuff lol. anyways here is the dare:

I KNOW YOU WILL READ THIS SO I DARE YOU TO WEAR A SKIRT TO SCHOOL AND SHAVE YOUR LEGS.

LESSON LEARNT FROM THE MOVIE:

ENERGY DRINKS SLOW TIME DOWN

...my scripts end...
~~wicked shit~~

2006-05-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

looks like i havent blogged in 4 days.

dont feel like blogging.

lol anyways funtasia was okay. killed me. actually funtasia REALLY killed me. im sick now. rawr. stupid carrying tables and stuff. lack of sleep. shagged and stuff. im so sick now. screw.

...my scripts end...
~~sick~~

2006-05-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

papers... screwed. lol death to me. hahaha.

oh wells. tmr has the last one. IH 40%. rawr. haha.

THANKS 05IP05! YOU GUYS RAWK! HAHA! ((=

haha after calculus paper (i screwed that one too) jem and i went to gelato... and we were tlaking nonsense all e way. and finally came to the point where we were arguing about firing blanks. lol. if u dont get it go ask jem. he'll ask the question. hahaha.

after school went out with hsuan te. haha man heck of a while since we've been out messing around like that hahaha. oh wells. theres our masks and sticks. we're ready to go. look out njc. lol.

...my scripts end...
~~sexual eligibility~~

2006-05-16T17:35:00.000+08:00

hair cut.

hollywood secrets.

wow.

my hair once looked like hay. now it looks so gay. and i cut it in may. 20 dollars i had to pay. but hey! its okay!

HAHAHAHAHA. okay that is SO spasticated.

today's is2101 paper was a murderer but binomial should get full marks. well hopefully.

anyways... is2103 is2104 ma2104 tmr. last stretch. okay boys. here's the plan...

go play euro 2004.

...my scripts end...
~~death to all
who oppose the horde~~

2006-05-15T19:34:00.000+08:00

what happens when you have a bad day in school? heres the recap.

in the morning i decide to put my racket in the tennis locker. so i walk down the steps blah blah. and reach the locker. i take out my key to the locker and everything in my wallet drops out. okay so i swear and pick them up. open the lock put my stuff in. close it. put my key into my wallet only for it to fall into the tennis cage. swear again. open the cage to take the key. then close the cage, snipping my finger. this time SWEAR again. yes. okay so thats the morning. afternoon. i close my eyes in the bus. and im like. 3 more stops after this stop. before long. i wake up to find my stop. the bus starts to move away. im like shit. nvm walk from the next stop back. BUT LO AND BEHOLD! it didnt stop at the next stop. it stopped at the one after. and when i got out, another 86 passed on the opposite direction. im like -_-" ZZZZ. so i walk back 3 bus stops. swearing. again. i started mocking cars and the traffic light. im like RED IS STOP. RED IS STOP. STOP! stupid traffic light. rawr. cant imagine how many vulgarities i used in that short frame of time. haha. then jsut now, right after dinner, i banged my ribs into the railing. that hurt... REAL bad. rawr. thats my bad lcuk.

heres my recap on the tests.

LA - NO IDEA HOW I DID
CL - HAH! DONT EVEN ASK
IS2102 - URM. OKAY I GUESS

just hope i dont die tmr. im not revising. cant be bothered. haha. just won the finals in the euro 2004. hawhaw. feeling ultra sleepy...

...my scripts end...
~~tmr is tues~~

2006-05-13T18:41:00.000+08:00

bah im getting so damn tired of all these assessment weeks.

im getting tired of school. :/ i feel like taking a break from school but then... thats out of the question isnt it? all that studying and schooling is getting to me... im getting so very weary from it. all that teacher blabbering all that morning waking up. that front... that face. sighs.

now im done studying and im feeling my usual uncertainty... but then im so distracted that i cant study at all. sighs. stupid thoughts in my mind. go away. dumb thing thinking those kind of stuff. really stupid. what the heck am i thinking about this. ive got more important things to think of. dumb shit man rayshio. stupid stupid! sighs. rebound? nahh. sheesh really needa get this outta my system. tmr seems like a nice day for a run. get my thoughts straight.

bah i really cant be bothered about assessment week anymore. all that studying... for what? sheeesh. im so utterly lost here... i cant find a reason why im in school studying and why im not out there doing what i want. sighs. im so going to go into depression sooner or later. send me to IMH quick. its so near my home. sighs.

wonder whether this is also a result of me stopping playing tennis... all my troubles back to haunt me. sighs. should i join steve again?

like a drug it persists,
over and over again.
very addictive it is,
especially when im in pain.

rawr.

can i just kill myself now. i know the word for my feelings now! BAI GAN JIAO JI!yes that is the word. lol. im going to blow from confusion and annoyance now. im SOOOOO annoyed. rahhh. murder myself XD take a bomb and stuff it up my rectum and electric shock me over and over again. that sounds awesome. now where did i put that high voltage wire... oh great. i see the power station down the road... =D

...my scripts end...
~~frieD~~